Girobatol
Specialist
- Sep 9, 2019
- 313
Had my things ready to ctb yesterday but my aunt, the one I lived with, died. So I had to move the body, call a doctor for a death certificate and do all the funerary arrangements. I am sad for her but feel selfish because now I can´t ctb so soon. I feel that we need to mourn her for a while, give a time lap in between deaths. So here I am, suffering from the nasty side effects of lithium, depakote, olanzapine, lexapro and ativan. I really dont want to die during the holidays, I wanted to die right now.