Venting I was 2 months clean.

[dreaming_of_pearl]

I relapsed. I think she wanted me to this had to be some kind of punishment for being such a bad person. I honestly wish I wasn't scared to die. I wish I could prove them all wrong that I'm not a fucking pussy.

Should I?

 

[Tesha]

Who is she and why do you think she wanted to punish you?

Relapse is part and parcel of recovery - you stayed clean, which is fantastic and I'm sure you'll have learned a lot about keeping yourself clean for a few hours. Don't beat yourself up and don't let anyone else do this. You've done two months before, you can do it again (and more).