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SweptAway
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- Jul 4, 2023
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I've been suicidal since I was a kid, and it still persists all these years later. For some reason, I feel equally content when I'm happy as when I want to ctb. However despite feeling like this I just can't get myself to do it. I want to so, so badly, and have for many years. Every time I attempt I think of everything I love in life and just can't commit to it, even though I don't care whatsoever about those things when I'm not mid-attempt. Long story short I want to want to do this, but I just can't manage. It's disgusting. I'd be curious to see if anyone else has experienced this despite how niche it seems.
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