I want to wait untill after new year so much

[1234dave]

I want to wait until after new year so December isn't tainted.

but I don't if I can as in so much pain

I've been severely incapacitated for 6 months. Unable to leave my room much of the time, going in and out of psycosis.

the thought of waiting 4 weeks terrifies me

I want to hold on until Jan. But need superhuman strength. What kept me going most days is the thought I could ctb

 

[RememberWhatUCameFor]

what would be the difference though

 

[1234dave]

Anniversary date is after Xmas each year

 

[Afterman]

What method?