I want to leave

[etchings]

Everything just keeps piling on and I feel like I can't do it anymore. I don't know how to cope. I keep hurting people in the process of trying to fix myself because I rope them in and then they too realize I'm not fixable. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel so alone. I have no money. Genuinely, I have absolutely nothing. I don't even have a bank account open or even a card. There's no way for me to get help right now and I simply can't continue on like this for much longer. I feel so hopeless. And sick. I keep getting sicker by the day, whether it's mentally or physically, my overall health is declining. I want to throw up all the blood in my body and just go limp and turn pale and die a quiet meaningless little death.

 

[jodes2]

Sorry your health is deteriorating. It must be awful not having a bank account or card or money, how do you cope??

 

[catflowers]

hi dude i feel for you i think that money isn't everything you have to take care of mental health and then worry about everything else dude if you can't move on from stuff you have to think of it in the short term

 

[etchings]

Sorry your health is deteriorating. It must be awful not having a bank account or card or money, how do you cope??

I'm young, so people take pity on me. I also am used to letting people take advantage of me.

 

[hamvil]

I know the feeling. Worse and worse things piling up on you, people telling you that it will get better, that you need to move forward. I think it is fine to give up at some point. To say that this book was ok, but that you do not want to read it until the end. That you want to write your own hand. Hope you find what you are looking for.

 

[Fktw0rld]

You found the right place my friend. Stay online, check the threads regularly, you'll realize you're not alone in your journey anymore. And all the issues you're facing are not unique to only you. We're out here too. If you have any fight left in you than keep fighting. When you feel like giving up, come here. SS has gotten me back in the fight on numerous occasions. Pro-lifers have no idea how powerful this website is. How many lives it's saved. And how many people who would have otherwise suffered and passed alone, didn't, because SS was there when no one else was. If you wanna get back in the fight, SS will get you back in the fight. If you wanna throw in the towel, SS will support your decision and remain with you. The choice is yours.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really awful what you are going through. It must be so overwhelming. I'm sorry that you suffer like this. It's horrible how life can torture us in so many ways, it's such a cruel existence. I hope that you find the freedom you are looking for.