Wyvrn
心は離れてゆく。。。
- Sep 22, 2021
- 3
I feel it makes it harder for me, I mean, I made this account super recently and it's because I'm finally making the decision of ending everything, I wanted to talk a little and search for some method here before I do.
BUT, my mom and my sisters are super vulnerable to depression, in fact, TODAY I read some venting shit from my mom talking about how she should never have born (and It's been like that since always), I can't help but feeling guilty and think about how I should be the strongest, I wish I was a better person, a better daughter, more capable, stronger, someone of whom my family can be proud and in whom to find support, BUT I DON'T REALLY WANT TO, I'm tired, I don't want to keep living, everything is so exausting, my mind won't stop the noise. UGH.
BUT, my mom and my sisters are super vulnerable to depression, in fact, TODAY I read some venting shit from my mom talking about how she should never have born (and It's been like that since always), I can't help but feeling guilty and think about how I should be the strongest, I wish I was a better person, a better daughter, more capable, stronger, someone of whom my family can be proud and in whom to find support, BUT I DON'T REALLY WANT TO, I'm tired, I don't want to keep living, everything is so exausting, my mind won't stop the noise. UGH.