I want to get a job but the prospect gives me huge anxiety.
I've dealt with repeated incidents of evil people before, including mental health 'professionals' who have discriminated against me.
As a result, intense anxiety gets triggered whenever I try to consider something such as a job which involves communication with the outside world.
I've tried being a programmer as there are lots of remote jobs about, but it hasn't worked out and It just isn't my field.
I now have to consider other pathways relevant to my qualifications such as data analysis.
Maybe it would be easier for me to just die, I can barely hold myself together thinking about it.
The only thing I find has helped stop me from turning to suicide is various distractions, but I know that isn't going to save me when my parents aren't around anymore and I'm forced to sell their home.
I've dealt with repeated incidents of evil people before, including mental health 'professionals' who have discriminated against me.
As a result, intense anxiety gets triggered whenever I try to consider something such as a job which involves communication with the outside world.
I've tried being a programmer as there are lots of remote jobs about, but it hasn't worked out and It just isn't my field.
I now have to consider other pathways relevant to my qualifications such as data analysis.
Maybe it would be easier for me to just die, I can barely hold myself together thinking about it.
The only thing I find has helped stop me from turning to suicide is various distractions, but I know that isn't going to save me when my parents aren't around anymore and I'm forced to sell their home.
