This is kind of a repeat post, and I may not convey correctly here so I will sound stupid and this will be confusing or incomplete but I'm a 21 year old male, everyday it's getting much worse, due to my body and face, it's not sustainable and I thought of taking drugs to cope and to keep living but ideally I want to be dead, regardless if the environment gets better, I can even be really rich and I'd want to be gone. But the aftermath is too messy, I typed this before but I'd try to make my body easier to deal with though it's useless and I can't accurately predict how it will look like, I'd have to accept that after I'm dead, there will be some stupid drama about me, id be talked about by bitches who i would kill if given the chance, I literally hate being plastered all over the place but I know all of this is dumb to think about because I will be dead anyways, I won't see it or care, so I'm being irrational right now. Everyday I'm edging on, but im like for some reason not doing it, always hesitate and it's because of failing, the aftermath, etc, so like, what do I do? If I want the most optimal and perhaps private which doesn't exist because my naked body would be taken anyways, shown to random fuckers for a good reason though. I'm like in a fucking limbo, sometimes I cope and laugh while being delusional, it's not humane to do so. I need to be gone, I just don't know what the fuck to do, I have like a shitty gps, that's what comes with being stupid. The title of this post probably didn't describe all of what I said, I just rambled
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