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Kieth

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Aug 31, 2021
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Hello fellow people who want to die. I'm happy to be here with you guys ๐Ÿ™‚

I have schizoaffective disorder. It's basically schizophrenia and bipolar mixed together.
I have mania, which is when I become angry, anxious, excited. I start making big plans and thinking ambitiously.
I also have depression, which is when I become slow, think slowly, become tired and unable to function, and become suicidal.
And last but definitely not least, I suffer from psychosis. I hear voices. I see shadows of people. I have delusions. Scary delusions that will not be mentioned. Delusions of reference, paranoia, persecution, religion, and more.

I'm also into some life situations that I will never be able to get out of.

So anyways, that's why I'm going to catch the bus soon! ๐Ÿ™‚ So you can talk about your own reasons for ctb. Or if you have any questions for me, I'll answer them!
 
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cececo

cececo

Depression + Depression != Happiness
Jan 31, 2022
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How does the ๐Ÿ™ƒ emoji feel to you, sarcastic, funny, cute, other?
In all honesty my brain is dead right now (lucky it) for coming up with decent questions, I mostly wanted to say I liked your post, something about the wording and everything is just nice to read. Welcome on here
 
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LivideLamb

LivideLamb

I'm so decaying, feeling like an ashtray
Jan 5, 2020
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It's unfair that most of us has to suffer...
I wish you sunny days ahead. I also wish you peace whatever your choices turns out to be :)
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry you have to go through this. I can imagine it must be unbearable having to suffer that much. My reason for ctb is that I just want non existence, I cannot cope with life and I do not want to live in a world where so much suffering exists. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
 
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Kieth

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Aug 31, 2021
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How does the ๐Ÿ™ƒ emoji feel to you, sarcastic, funny, cute, other?
In all honesty my brain is dead right now (lucky it) for coming up with decent questions, I mostly wanted to say I liked your post, something about the wording and everything is just nice to read. Welcome on here
It's an honest and pure smile. I'm happy.

Normally I have extreme difficulty working towards goals. But catching the bus is something I look forward to doing, and I'm happy to work towards it as one of my last goals.


It's unfair that most of us has to suffer...
I wish you sunny days ahead. I also wish you peace whatever your choices turns out to be :)
Thank you ๐Ÿ™‚


I'm sorry you have to go through this. I can imagine it must be unbearable having to suffer that much. My reason for ctb is that I just want non existence, I cannot cope with life and I do not want to live in a world where so much suffering exists. I wish you the best in whatever happens.
Same. Thanks ๐Ÿ™‚
 

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