justexisting14
isitoveryet?
- Mar 17, 2019
- 14
I'm crying typing this. I don't know how to properly start a thread but please bare with me. Is there anyone else out there who just suffers from a tremendous amount of depression everyday? Sometimes a new idea or a hobby comes along to keep you sane for 2-4 days and then that just goes to shit. I'm so ready to die already but then I start thinking methods and how complicated and why can't I just drive into a river or jump off a bridge. Even though deep down I just wanna opt out already. It's so painful everyday. I'm only 22 years old but I feel like I've accomplished nothing. There's nothing in the world for me. People are mean things aren't certain and it's just too much pain than happiness. And all the times I experience a sense of joy, later I'm going to be 10x more depressed. I even get into manic episodes where I'm just so pissed off at everyone and stuff they do that I sometimes even question how am I human? There's no way people can think like they do? I feel like I can't escape and it's not fair and that's what really hurts. Living everyday.