I want to die but suicide scares me

[wowsies]

So I've wanted to die for a while now. I constantly feel sad and the only time I feel good is when I'm talking to a guy who abused me. I really want to die to escape everything but I'm terrified of suicide. I've gotten so close before and then backed out last second. Does anyone know how to get over my fear so I can just die?

 

[mayirestinchaos]

Feeling sorry. What happened to you?

 

[frontofthebus]

I feel the same. It's like torture being trapped here and being too scared to fully commit.

 

[xyz1232014]

So I've wanted to die for a while now. I constantly feel sad and the only time I feel good is when I'm talking to a guy who abused me. I really want to die to escape everything but I'm terrified of suicide. I've gotten so close before and then backed out last second. Does anyone know how to get over my fear so I can just die?

I hear you my friend. I don't have an answer to your question, but I am in the same boat. I chickened out around Christmas and I regret not even trying (though perhaps I'd regret trying and failing even more). I've been researching methods for a long time now, and ultimately it just comes down to how we are wired as humans - the innate sense of self-preservation and avoidance of pain. From what I've read, those who choose more painful or gruesome methods (such as gunshot, rail, etc.), might be able to do so because they've been exposed to violence or great risk, e.g., former soldiers, police officers, etc. for a longer time. Peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

At least in my case I would have no problems going through with ctb if I had a peaceful and reliable method, but the fact that I don't is the reason as to why I'm still sadly trapped here. I also fear many of the methods as I would be scared of failing and just ending up in a worse condition. We really do all just deserve the option of N, we shouldn't have to suffer so much in leaving this hellish world, but there are just no easy answers to the question you asked and this is just the unfortunate reality.

 

[Sparx]

At least in my case I would have no problems going through with ctb if I had a peaceful and reliable method, but the fact that I don't is the reason as to why I'm still sadly trapped here. I also fear many of the methods as I would be scared of failing and just ending up in a worse condition. We really do all just deserve the option of N, we shouldn't have to suffer so much in leaving this hellish world, but there are just no easy answers to the question you asked and this is just the unfortunate reality.

Aren't you in the UK? SN can be acquired from IC.

 

[sheepgirl]

Me too. I'm mostly scared of what happens after. Part of me believes nothing happens but I've been reading NDE stories and they scare me..