lost.ghost

lost.ghost

dissolving mind
Jan 25, 2019
110
I want to die, I want to jump, but I'm scared to. I don't understand why. There's something holding me back and I don't know what it is. I wish whatever's holding me back would just go away so I can finally CTB and have some peace. Anyone have any advice on getting over fear about CTB?
 
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Macc Lad

Macc Lad

Specialist
Jan 22, 2019
300
I want to die, I want to jump, but I'm scared to. I don't understand why. There's something holding me back and I don't know what it is. I wish whatever's holding me back would just go away so I can finally CTB and have some peace. Anyone have any advice on getting over fear about CTB?

i can promise you , alot of people will feel like that! there's no way back if you do it right!
 
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Sinbad

Sinbad

Self-Annihilation is loading...95%
Nov 27, 2018
542
You will die anyway but potentially not according to your liking.. But purposefully CTB will allow you to die how and whenever you want.
Another thought to remember is that in a million years no one will remember you or the pain you might have caused to your loved once.
Bizarre thought but true :P
 
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Mich517

Mich517

Ex-musician
Jan 9, 2019
139
When I was trying partial suspension I was scared when everything was going black. In further attempts it didn't frighten me yet, other problems appeared, feeling uncomfortable for example.
Maybe of sort of exercises are a solution? Sliding pipes in waterparks can be very fast. Once I was sliding on steep pipe and I had a think that falling from tall building is similar.
 
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I am ___________

I am ___________

Hated, Unloved by the world and everything in it.
Jan 3, 2019
134
I want to die, I want to jump, but I'm scared to. I don't understand why. There's something holding me back and I don't know what it is. I wish whatever's holding me back would just go away so I can finally CTB and have some peace. Anyone have any advice on getting over fear about CTB?

You will eventually reach a certain point when you have had enough, before you know it you'll have the materials to do it and you dive head first into the abyss. Everyone has a limit, you just have not reached it yet.... you fear the unknown, that is only human. Or you may still harbor feelings of hope; hope is like a flame, it burns bright but it slowly dissipates into nothing. Suicide is for the individual to decide, not others..... your life is your own, if you see that nothing good will become of it and you will only face nothing but pointless hardships, then it is only logical to end it.
 
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I am ___________

I am ___________

Hated, Unloved by the world and everything in it.
Jan 3, 2019
134
Also the method may not be for you, if you have resources try other methods. Do research on them before buying the materials and make sure the setting is right.... you don't want anyone to try and "save" you, if they do you will wish you were dead.
 
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siray

siray

the crucified
Dec 28, 2018
178
You will die anyway but potentially not according to your liking.. But purposefully CTB will allow you to die how and whenever you want.
Another thought to remember is that in a million years no one will remember you or the pain you might have caused to your loved once.
Bizarre thought but true :P
100 years will be more than enough for all of us to be completely forgotten about, every new generation builds their existence over the ashes of the previous one without even so much as remembering the names of the dead.

Even if you have the most vibrant Instagram profile with hundreds of beautiful photos, the generation 100 years from now won't give any value to it because they will be self obsessed like all people have been due to their inherent nature.
This thought gives me great comfort, knowing that everything I think or do contributes to absolutely nothing in the long run.
 
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J

Jake88

Member
Jan 25, 2019
43
I'm terrified of heights. Like the end of that movie Vanilla Sky? That's the way I should go about it. I'll know I'm ready if I can take a nose dive off a building.

I prefer the quickness and impulsive nature that a gun provides. I'm not suggesting you go out and get a gun. On the contrary, If there's something holding you back? Listen to it. Don't listen to us.

My children are the only thing holding me back.
 
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Eren

Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,073
I'm the same, I want CTB but the survival instinct is very strong
 
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Jiva

Jiva

I want ...
Nov 18, 2018
493
If you can't do it, thinking about why? Maybe you still have a reason live. And maybe you are looking for a courage only. I am in the same phase. I failed several times and i am looking for why? If you find a answer, please, write me it. Thanks :)
 
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lost.ghost

lost.ghost

dissolving mind
Jan 25, 2019
110
Anyone have any advice on getting over survival instincts? I think that's what's holding me back. I think that's the fear
 
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color_me_gone

color_me_gone

Sun is rising
Dec 27, 2018
970
100 years will be more than enough for all of us to be completely forgotten about
More than once I have been to the cemetery to visit loved ones. After I finish, I like to walk around and look at other grave stones, at names and dates. I wonder what those people looked like, how their lives were, how their marriage was, what it was like to raise their children, were they happy, sad? It was such an eerie feeling to know they had a full life, and now nobody knows or cares.

Yes, insignificance.
 
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color_me_gone

color_me_gone

Sun is rising
Dec 27, 2018
970
advice on getting over survival instincts?
This is a problem we all share.
The people with the answers are no longer with us.
 
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