burglarlydante
Member
- Apr 30, 2020
- 92
I want to ctb until November (my birthday month) and I don't know how can I do that without being catch by my family, that is keeping an eye on me. Cuz of my past suicidal attempts. I'm from Rio de Janeiro, Brazil, and I was not able to look for places to jump or something.
My life's a mess, and I can't deal with my endless depression and my PTSD, and there's still gender dysphoria in my daily horrible endless cycle.
Also I have nobody here to be my safe harbor and I can't maintain relationships for a long time and cuz of my numb ass I always lost everybody in the end of the night.
I hate myself and I can't handle one more day in this shit.
The world is kinda messy and shitty these years (like it always have been but kinda worst) and I think we all end up fucked and dead in this shit, so, one more reason to catch the bus and have a peaceful time in the nowhere hahahshshshsh.
I think the focus of the beginning of this post was completely lost and turned into a normal venting haha.
So now going back to the initial subject, I need some methods and tips for outwit my family so i can finally ctb and leave this, hole flesh of pain and suffering. haha
anyway thx for reading and I hope someone could help me haha
My life's a mess, and I can't deal with my endless depression and my PTSD, and there's still gender dysphoria in my daily horrible endless cycle.
Also I have nobody here to be my safe harbor and I can't maintain relationships for a long time and cuz of my numb ass I always lost everybody in the end of the night.
I hate myself and I can't handle one more day in this shit.
The world is kinda messy and shitty these years (like it always have been but kinda worst) and I think we all end up fucked and dead in this shit, so, one more reason to catch the bus and have a peaceful time in the nowhere hahahshshshsh.
I think the focus of the beginning of this post was completely lost and turned into a normal venting haha.
So now going back to the initial subject, I need some methods and tips for outwit my family so i can finally ctb and leave this, hole flesh of pain and suffering. haha
anyway thx for reading and I hope someone could help me haha