i want to ctb but...

[bobara_07]

I dont have anyone, or anything to look forward to in my life, currently. But there's one person, who, I am supposed to really hate, but I cant bring myself to do it. He told me how my weakness is I care about people too much, admitted that indeed, the love is one sided but I dont really care at this point. I want to die die SO bad SO BADLY but I cant bring myself to do it, even self harm. I fucking love him too bad, he told me i should stop caring so much cause I get hurt in the end but it doesn't matter, I swore Id never leave him even after all that he did. Its hard. What do I even do? And I also have 4-5 other really close friends and I do not wanna burden them with my death.

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like such a tiring and difficult situation to be in, but after all only you know what is the right thing for yourself, I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[lookingforsanctuary]

Hurting the ones left behind is the hardest part. I don't see a way past this problem.