i want to CTB but one thing is stopping me

[aftersklll]

I want to overdose so bad I can't live how i am anymore but I cant. it would absolutely shatter my mother's heart and i love her too much to do it. my dad is my best friend too and i just cant do that to him. i would feel terrible. i just wish i didnt have such good parents so i can die in peace.

 

[Flippintogo]

I can relate. I don't want to cause any pain to my mom and my family. I'm stuck in limbo. Feeling SI and worrying about my family while being empty and hopeless. Its a cruel trap.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Can completely relate, at least to the mom part. My mom is an absolute gem now and I know it would crush her. My dad, however, is a dead beat. I have other people and a pet that would be crushed though, so it's nearly impossible for me to bring myself to CTB, no matter how much pain and suffering I am enduring right now for their sake.