I want to ctb but its so hard and I don't have a method here

[Suicidebydeath]

*sad*

I want to do N with someone.

 

[breadlexington]

Same situation. I am sorry that you are feeling this way.

Other posters may have a different experience but it's been very hard for me to get any N.

 

[london3]

*sad*

I want to do N with someone.

Meeting a stranger to CTB scares me because of the potential downsides.

@Suicidebydeath I was just curious why members like yourself look for a partner to do it with? Do the negatives not outweigh the positives?

Especially in the UK where if you get caught helping someone you might end up in prison?

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is so difficult to leave this world and I think that a peaceful suicide should be a human right. I would prefer to die alone, but nobody should have to die alone if that is what they want and it is cruel how the society wants to deny people a peaceful death. I understand how you feel, the only reason as to why I am still alive is because of limited access to methods. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[Seeking_Peace]

Meeting a stranger to CTB scares me because of the potential downsides.

@Suicidebydeath I was just curious why members like yourself look for a partner to do it with? Do the negatives not outweigh the positives?

Especially in the UK where if you get caught helping someone you might end up in prison?

Agree. & It puts more pressure to commit the act or face prison time.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Meeting a stranger to CTB scares me because of the potential downsides.

@Suicidebydeath I was just curious why members like yourself look for a partner to do it with? Do the negatives not outweigh the positives?

Especially in the UK where if you get caught helping someone you might end up in prison?

SI, self-guilt, I have no method available, don't live alone, and I'm very, very tired. Plus growing up like I have leaves my ability to act in my own interests very damaged.

I'm aware of the many horrible negatives but if it was easy to kill myself I would've done it by now.

Agree. & It puts more pressure to commit the act or face prison time.

Thankfully there's no consequences if you die.

 

[MyChoiceToLeave]

It would be interesting to ctb with someone else with N although maybe I'd have a friend and wouldn't want to die anymore. And since total insomnia is my main issue, I'm wondering if a small amount of N would be a sleep aide. But I don't even think N would work on me at all. I'm on meds that are supposed to knock an elephant out and they only do minor things for anxiety now. I think mixing N with valproic acid and/or benzos wouldn't do anything. But I really just want to go back in time before I was forced to take psychiatric drugs and avoid it completely and have another chance at life.

 

[Bigpink]

If I had a method, getting SN or N seems difficult, I wouldn't be here now. Spend most of my time wishing I wasn't.