LostZombie
Transgirl Chemist
- Oct 10, 2025
- 69
I am a bad person, and I have emotionally abused my friends, took advantage of others for my own gain, and have (not now obviously) been extremely homo/transphobic to others. I keep getting told that I was just in a bad place, or that it's not my fault; at what point will I be held accountable for my actions, everyone else excuses my actions even if I confess to doing truly diabolical things.
For example I knew a trans kid, and I emotionally manipulated him in to try to love me, even though he didn't like me back, and I even blackmailed him one time. I tried to get "favors" too, thankfully I was never able to get him to do any. I also have also been very self absorbed too, and just an overall dick, like I would not tip. I know I am a terrible person for just putting a 0$ tip, like I have no excuse that was just a terrible thing to do, nowadays I tip 30% to try and make up for it, but I was told it was okay, it's just 5$; yeah 5$ that someone depends on to make ends meat. I could afford it too, my I got handed a bone when my both my parents earned 6 figures, I just would not tip to see people's reactions. I would also bully gay kids, just for no other reason than they are different, I would scream at people if they even mentioned pronouns. My worst offense, I almost killed a drunk guy by splashing water on him to try and get him to "sober up", yeah no it caused him to almost freeze to death.
I take full responsibility for my actions, yet my family claims it's not my fault. They still see as a good person who was "just in a bad place". I hate that since if they would see how awful I was they would not care about me, then I would be able to CTB, and they would not care. However they still care about my "mental health" so, if I were to CTB they would be distraught all because I could never do anything wrong.
Tell me are these choices I have made excusable to you?
For example I knew a trans kid, and I emotionally manipulated him in to try to love me, even though he didn't like me back, and I even blackmailed him one time. I tried to get "favors" too, thankfully I was never able to get him to do any. I also have also been very self absorbed too, and just an overall dick, like I would not tip. I know I am a terrible person for just putting a 0$ tip, like I have no excuse that was just a terrible thing to do, nowadays I tip 30% to try and make up for it, but I was told it was okay, it's just 5$; yeah 5$ that someone depends on to make ends meat. I could afford it too, my I got handed a bone when my both my parents earned 6 figures, I just would not tip to see people's reactions. I would also bully gay kids, just for no other reason than they are different, I would scream at people if they even mentioned pronouns. My worst offense, I almost killed a drunk guy by splashing water on him to try and get him to "sober up", yeah no it caused him to almost freeze to death.
I take full responsibility for my actions, yet my family claims it's not my fault. They still see as a good person who was "just in a bad place". I hate that since if they would see how awful I was they would not care about me, then I would be able to CTB, and they would not care. However they still care about my "mental health" so, if I were to CTB they would be distraught all because I could never do anything wrong.
Tell me are these choices I have made excusable to you?
