Discussion I want to be held as I CTB

[DrJ3llyf1sh]

My CTB date is in 12 days. The more time passes the more I think about the afterlife, about whether or not I've left enough behind to give people close to me, about the things I need to hurry up and do so I don't miss out on too much. I'm almost done my bucket list. I'm ready to go. But when I do, I want to be held. I want my bestfriend stroking my hair as I die peacefully. Of course, they can't know about my plans or they'll try to stop me. Does anyone else want to CTB while being comforted into death?

 

[divinemistress36]

Ya I wish someone could hold my hand while I die

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

not me, I want to die alone. I'm not comfortable being near people, and I don't want anyone around.

 

[Apokryphiel]

That'd be so perfect, wouldn't it? Alas, we live in a very imperfect world. Not many people would be okay with someone killing themselves, let alone comforting them as they do it. Such a shame.

 

[PoppyBlack]

I would. Very much. However, if I felt there was someone who cared enough to be there, I might not want to go so much!

 

[eternalexhaustion]

I was just thinking about this scenario and how nice it would be if I could just be hugged by someone as I go. The thought of ctb makes me feel very lonely and scared, but I know it's unlikely to happen, and that's something I have to deal with.

 

[_soulless_]

I've been thinking about this a lot

 

[Luminous_]

I feel similarly, I'm strangely jealous of those who unfortunately have a terminal illness; because their family all know, they can be there for them and they can just talk about what will happen and their mortality. This is a luxury people who commit suicide aren't allowed, along with a method of suicide that is painless and quick.

 

[mossmoth]

Honestly, being held in any situation sounds nice to me. I just want to be held. but being held while i ctb would be amazing.

That reminds me, I forgot "Arms Tonite" by mother mother existed. It's a song about ctb in someone's arms. Just got smacked back into 2021 tiktok haha

 

[Cress]

I think the person holding your hand would also be trying to stop you from taking your own life. Something that's only available to people in the hospital when the timing lines up I suppose And everyone knows they have a terminal illness. I'm also kind of scared to die alone.