I want something good to happen

[Tionally]

When will something really good finally happen? I want something to happen. I need it to. I want for something to stop me from ctb. I know it's naive to wait for good things instead of changing your live yourself but at this point I don't have any motivation and also don't know what would I even do. But I know one thing: if nothing changes I don't want to live. But I want for something to stop this feeling of pointlessness. I can only hope to. If it doesn't then well... I guess I already have my SN.

 

[stillvoices]

I was thinking the same thing last night as far as wanting something good to happen. Went for a walk with my in home support person. Nothing good happened but it was better to get outside instead of staying in bed. I feel for you. Sending good thoughts your way. I'm sorry.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I can relate to this. I want / must consider CTB bc of a fucked up life situation. Hoping for a miracle that's not gonna happen ... I want to live but not at all costs ... CTB might be the better choice to end suffering before it gets worse.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Same but the hope is futile

 

[brokeandbroken]

When will something really good finally happen? I want something to happen. I need it to. I want for something to stop me from ctb. I know it's naive to wait for good things instead of changing your live yourself but at this point I don't have any motivation and also don't know what would I even do. But I know one thing: if nothing changes I don't want to live. But I want for something to stop this feeling of pointlessness. I can only hope to. If it doesn't then well... I guess I already have my SN.

Well if it makes you feel better my life has absolutely no good things. So everyone else should be due.

 

[BlazingBob]

I'm the same. I wish more than anything things would change for the better but they only get worse, including my health. The health part I can't do a thing about. The last thing I want to do is ctb but life is giving me no choice. It's a terrible thing to be forced to do. I pray everyday for a miracle.