i want someone to kill me

[hyacinths]

can't stop thinking how nice it would be to take it all away from me. euthanasia, almost. the suicidal ideation has been here for a decade, i just need someone to help with the survival instincts lol.

 

[pain6batch9]

Survival instincts? You need someone to help you make them more or less?

 

[hyacinths]

Survival instincts?

basically the instinct to live preventing me from following through with plans

 

[pain6batch9]

basically the instinct to live preventing me from following through with plans

Ah I see. Maybe, exploring these instincts in more depth will lead you to an antidote…

 

[Sgrodolo]

basically the instinct to live preventing me from following through with plans

Yeah I've been struggling with that a lot, it's hard to CTB when even if I want to die there's a small part of my brain which refuses to and has administrator priviledge, so far no amount of alcohol or medications was able to overcome that

 

[Unknown21]

can't stop thinking how nice it would be to take it all away from me. euthanasia, almost. the suicidal ideation has been here for a decade, i just need someone to help with the survival instincts lol.

Have you ever thought about whether you really want to end everything or not?

Survival instinct is sometimes a sign of hope, if you have some it will get in your way.

Also, the chosen method has a big factor. Some of them require a lot of effort and suffering, others require less...etc.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Same, I also wish that I could get killed by somebody else. It seems more reliable than trying to kill myself. It would be so nice if somebody ended my pain forever.

Survival instinct is sometimes a sign of hope, if you have some it will get in your way.

Survival instinct has nothing to do with hope. It's merely the body's unconscious fear, reflexive response to pain that has been developed over billions of years of evolution. Every human has survival instinct even if they want to die and have no desire to live at all

 

[peruguy23]

I would like to do CTB but there would be someone nearby to make sure I died

 

[AbusedInnocent]

Yeah I've been struggling with that a lot, it's hard to CTB when even if I want to die there's a small part of my brain which refuses to and has administrator priviledge, so far no amount of alcohol or medications was able to overcome that

Admin privileges? Well there's your problem, your brain runs windows.

 

[verybabybunny]

I feel exactly the same.

I've asked a few people I love over the course of my life. Probably 3 of them.

They said no and acted like I was crazy.

I've asked, 'do you really love me? I need help with something'.

Has yet to work though.

 

[Davey36000]

Go to your local serial killer and ask how much he charged for his services.

 

[maynoname]

I once honestly asked a friend to strangle me. Of course he never wanted to.

 

[NoPoint2Life]

To be clear I think mass shootings are horrific. But sometimes I wonder how I would react if I was in the unfortunate place of being in One. Would I try to get hit or would SI kick in and prevent me. I also wonder if I had a heart attack if I would make a call for help or if I could just manage to go through the pain and hope i would die.

 

[Marco77]

I believe it too. If another person does it it's much safer.
But even if he does it in a group. I read about a group of three girls in Germany who went into the woods and committed suicide in a tent with carbon monoxide. Probably feeling in company can help against the fear of dying.

PATTI SUICIDI/ Il caso di tre ragazze tedesche che si sono uccise in una tenda in un bosco

Tre ragazze tedesche che si erano conosciute tramite Internet, si sono uccise inalando monossido di carbone chiuse dentro una tenda in un bosco. Altri casi analoghi

www.ilsussidiario.net

 

[hyacinths]

Go to your local serial killer and ask how much he charged for his services.

god i wish it was that simple

 

[FuneralCry]

I also just wish to be free from all the suffering, to me existing truly is so painful, I hope you find peace eventually.

 

[deathtakeme]

I wish this was a possibility and as simple as signing a contract.

 

[wanttodie]

me tt I want someone to kill me

 

[helpsh]

I feel the same