I'm sorry for your suffering. I saw in another if your threads that you want to attempt to CTB with the aim of being taken to hospital. I'm sorry you've reached such a point of desperation. If you would like to talk to someone, you are welcome to PM me or continue to post here if you have yet to unlock PM privileges (I don't know the requirements for it personally). I can't promise that I'll be helpful or useful, but I will read what you have to say and try to understand your pain. If reaching out to someone is what will reduce your pain right now, even if that someone is a stranger, I would be happy to be that stranger if it can be of any comfort to you. Whatever happens, I hope you can find a peace from the torment within you.
MyShadow
Left the forum to pursue recovery
- Aug 27, 2025
- 475
If you're isolated where you are now, there are plenty of people here to chat with.
We've all been there. Alone. Scared. Hurting. So feel free to reach out to me or anyone else.
telekon
Specialist
- Feb 5, 2025
- 338
shatteredspine
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- Feb 9, 2024
- 31
The world is a lonely place these days, I'm so sorry you're feeling like this. It may seem like an unconventional place to make friends but there are a lot of us here that are feeling the same way. There are a lot of really great people that use this forum. You are welcome to reach out if you ever need a friend. There are already so many potential friends in the comments! And we do care. You'll find a lot of empathy for your struggles here we all know what it is like to feel pain and isolation — and wouldn't wish it on anyone. I hope that you are alright
Just confirming that I've received it and sent a reply; hopefully that came through to you and we can continue there.
kilowatt
scumfuc
- Sep 9, 2023
- 412
This is really soothing to read even as someone outside the situation. You sound very comforting, you're very good at this
Best regards to OP, as others have mentioned this site offers a safe place for venting or chatting if needed.
I cant seem to see it, i dont know if maybe my account is too new or something, im sorry
No stress, and no need to be sorry. In my opinion, the way the forum handles chat vs. conversation is pretty confusing. The way you contacted me was what I would call 'Chat'. Assuming you're on mobile, you can access it with the chat bubbles with the green number at the top right of the site. You can then choose 'Conversation with Kurwenal' to read my message and reply. It's confusing and silly that it's 'Chat', but termed a 'Conversation', to my mind.
In case the chat feature isn't working for you, I've also sent you a 'Conversation'. These are great as you can make it that you get email and/or push notifications when you receive one. To access these, go to the 'hamburger menu/three horizontal lines' in the top left, again assuming mobile, choose the icon that looks like an out tray (immediately to the left of the bell), and there will be a list of conversations. I personally find this is the better way to communicate privately on this site.
Think of 'Chat' as live messaging, similar to something like Discord. Meanwhile, 'Conversations' are more like a PM/DM. A bit less fast-paced, if nothing else. Hopefully these instructions can help you see the messages I've sent, through either option. Please do reach out again on this thread if it's still not working for you: we'll find a way.
