I recently found out that the SN I ordered is known on here to be not very good at all, hence likely not good enough to CTB. I point to the thread below:
sanctioned-suicide.net
It feels like the rug got pulled out from right under me. I went from feeling such relief and confidence to simply being desperate. I want something that works so badly, and I want to believe it. I want that sense of reassurance again. I want the luxury of caring what might happen to those I leave behind, the luxury of being able to prioritize my note. I want to know and rest assured I finally have an out.
I have to now consult my list of mostly dodgy methods and hope that whichever I pull the trigger on works. My backup plan is to use the alkyl nitrites (poppers) I just ordered and hope they can finish me off. Next would be carbon monoxide poisoning, but making the preparations would likely be too suspicious to the family I live with.
Agh, this is a lot to deal with. It's not fair that reliable and peaceful outs are made difficult.
DO NOT BUY OR USE PRO CURE SN
This new source from FF is not reliable. Pro Cure brand SN is known to be nitrate. You will get sick if you ingest it.
sanctioned-suicide.net
It feels like the rug got pulled out from right under me. I went from feeling such relief and confidence to simply being desperate. I want something that works so badly, and I want to believe it. I want that sense of reassurance again. I want the luxury of caring what might happen to those I leave behind, the luxury of being able to prioritize my note. I want to know and rest assured I finally have an out.
I have to now consult my list of mostly dodgy methods and hope that whichever I pull the trigger on works. My backup plan is to use the alkyl nitrites (poppers) I just ordered and hope they can finish me off. Next would be carbon monoxide poisoning, but making the preparations would likely be too suspicious to the family I live with.
Agh, this is a lot to deal with. It's not fair that reliable and peaceful outs are made difficult.
