Method I want it to end

[kingfool316]

I have already planned my way to CTB. If I don't update in 4 days, it means I did it.

I'm going to do this very early at 5am. I have been "taking walks" outside. What my family doesn't know is that I'm looking for spots that are perfect for my plans, and I found it.

I'm gonna go out in four days at pretense of "exercise" with a back pack with my tools. I can't say what my method is but I hope it works

So now I'm just pretending everything is normal as to not alert anybody and have them stop me. I have tried to poison myself in the past and all it did was hospitalize me, but nobody knew it was intentional, which is good, I don't want pity. I am just enjoying playing games for what maybe the last times.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best, I hope that you find what you are searching for.

 

[kingfool316]

Update:

Change of plans. I may have to do it next week, which has a bigger window of opportunity for me, and is far fitting personally. I'll update again for anything else might happen