Venting I want death!

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every second I think about Ctb but things are holding me back. I can't stand everyone's normal life. I hate my work. It's ironic. I have to go to suicide prevention training on Friday. And I want to ctb before then. :/ I can't handle this shitty brain and body I'm in anymore.

 

[Deadbeforenov16th]

every second I think about Ctb but things are holding me back. I can't stand everyone's normal life. I hate my work. It's ironic. I have to go to suicide prevention training on Friday. And I want to ctb before then. :/ I can't handle this shitty brain and body I'm in anymore.

Can I ask what's holding you back? I understand, was so close yesterday but got caught with the materials.

 

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Can I ask what's holding you back? I understand, was so close yesterday but got caught with the materials.

Survival instinct. A family tie. One. The one reason I'm alive. I want to go so badly though. I'm living for him. My life is a shell. I am tortured at this time. Self torture. I should have died in August. I did not.

 

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Can I ask what's holding you back? I understand, was so close yesterday but got caught with the materials.

Sorry you got caught. What method?

 

[wanttodie]

me to i want death

 

[Deadbeforenov16th]

Sorry you got caught. What method?

Taxine poisoning via yew needles

 

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Taxine poisoning via yew needles

Wow, intense. where did you get them?