Good afternoon everyone, I'm new here. First of all, sorry for my English, I'm Spanish.
Briefly, the cause for which I want ctb is for a very intense chronic pain that I have had in all the right back for more than ten months and that with no drug I manage to control. I have reached the point of taking several opiates at the same time, this is not life, I do not sleep despite taking hypnotics for pain and inactivity, I am not happy because my life is based on being in bed or at most walking a while, although then my pain is even greater. Years ago I had anorexia nervosa and depression, which means that at present the health system does not take my problem seriously and that no one has really studied why I have this pain. All I know is that I don't have herniasb (I have had an ultrasound and MRI scan, but nothing else). In the pain unit itself they dispatched me from the consultation. I've tried everything but I can't fight them and I can't take this physical pain anymore. I want to live but not with this quality of life, it is a continuous torture.
I have been reading your forum and information for a few days, at first I thought of SN, I am not afraid of suffering, but I have seen that in many cases it is not effective. I have already been in a psychiatric hospital and I do not want to return or suffer irreversible health problems such as brain damage or paralysis. I have thought of everything, throwing myself off my 4th floor even if I discard it at the moment that confirms that the probability of survival is 50%. I thought that my only way out is N, do you think that if I moved to Mexico I could buy it? Thanks for reading it and getting here.
Greetings, we all deserve to decide on our life.
Por cierto, olvidé mencionar que antes de conocer este foro y otros ya probé ctb con 15 g de paracetamol. Desafortunadamente vomité mucho y, sin embargo, en el hospital lograron recuperar mi hígado porque era demasiado doloroso, pensé que el primer día o los dos serían asintomáticos, pero no fue así en absoluto. Sin embargo, siendo como soy, si no obtengo ctb, de lo contrario, apoyaré esto y no iré al hospital hasta que hayan pasado varios días, tomando antieméticos, porque de esa manera el daño no puede repararse. Será una muerte dolorosa pero casi segura.
Briefly, the cause for which I want ctb is for a very intense chronic pain that I have had in all the right back for more than ten months and that with no drug I manage to control. I have reached the point of taking several opiates at the same time, this is not life, I do not sleep despite taking hypnotics for pain and inactivity, I am not happy because my life is based on being in bed or at most walking a while, although then my pain is even greater. Years ago I had anorexia nervosa and depression, which means that at present the health system does not take my problem seriously and that no one has really studied why I have this pain. All I know is that I don't have herniasb (I have had an ultrasound and MRI scan, but nothing else). In the pain unit itself they dispatched me from the consultation. I've tried everything but I can't fight them and I can't take this physical pain anymore. I want to live but not with this quality of life, it is a continuous torture.
I have been reading your forum and information for a few days, at first I thought of SN, I am not afraid of suffering, but I have seen that in many cases it is not effective. I have already been in a psychiatric hospital and I do not want to return or suffer irreversible health problems such as brain damage or paralysis. I have thought of everything, throwing myself off my 4th floor even if I discard it at the moment that confirms that the probability of survival is 50%. I thought that my only way out is N, do you think that if I moved to Mexico I could buy it? Thanks for reading it and getting here.
Greetings, we all deserve to decide on our life.
Por cierto, olvidé mencionar que antes de conocer este foro y otros ya probé ctb con 15 g de paracetamol. Desafortunadamente vomité mucho y, sin embargo, en el hospital lograron recuperar mi hígado porque era demasiado doloroso, pensé que el primer día o los dos serían asintomáticos, pero no fue así en absoluto. Sin embargo, siendo como soy, si no obtengo ctb, de lo contrario, apoyaré esto y no iré al hospital hasta que hayan pasado varios días, tomando antieméticos, porque de esa manera el daño no puede repararse. Será una muerte dolorosa pero casi segura.
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