I wanna kill myself but Im too afraid of what i will miss out on

[carnis-insanis]

I know this sounds crazy as we all know that life is painful and worthless and its nothing but a struggle, but im always afraid theres always that chance that it will get better, and even if it wont, i will have something to do, I really love my friends, I look forward to talking to them every single day, but I feel so guilty for being a burden on them, I cant handle my problems and its getting so obvious my best friend is getting more and more worried for me, I started crying last night while we were on call because we had this long discussion about how I can tell him anything and everything and eventually asked me if im Okay because i was sniffling, God I feel so guilty, I dont want anyone to worry about me, i just want someone to comfort me once in a while, I want to die to get rid of his burden, the same with my family, one mouth less to feed, but im so selfish that I cant because i get FOMO
anyone else experiences this?

 

[jodes2]

Don't worry about being a burden, people usually just want to help

 

[carnis-insanis]

Don't worry about being a burden, people usually just want to help

I know...I just dont want people loosing sleep over me again, I dont think their help would be long lasting either, comforting sure, because it shows that they care, but i cant help but worry that its all an act and that theyre saying this to get it over with so i can stop whinning

 

[Source Energy]

hmm, it sounds like you don't really want to ctb, deep down...at least, you are not ready for it...and that's ok

 

[calssilva]

Think about it, at least, you have some friends...