gummyshark
marine bio keeps me sane
- Aug 27, 2024
- 13
I wish I could get sick so badly or a deadly disease that would surely kill me. I've always considered suicide multiple times but I've always wished for an easier option like getting a fatal disease. I know that probably won't happen and just a fantasy in my head since I'm relatively healthy, physically.
Every single day, I'd pray just to get fatally injured or sick. Maybe I could even get hit by a car while walking down a road. I just wanna collapse and die. Maybe it sounds selfish, but everyone has a selfish side to them. We all want something, don't we?
I'm not trying to seem rude and like I'm mocking those who've actually died from these things when they didn't want to but, I just can't handle being alive anymore. I pray for my death every single day. I wouldn't mind whether it be an accident or a disease, I just wanna die.
Maybe I'll feel guilty for those around me, especially my family and close friends, but, I should prioritise what I want, right? I can't always give.
Every single day, I'd pray just to get fatally injured or sick. Maybe I could even get hit by a car while walking down a road. I just wanna collapse and die. Maybe it sounds selfish, but everyone has a selfish side to them. We all want something, don't we?
I'm not trying to seem rude and like I'm mocking those who've actually died from these things when they didn't want to but, I just can't handle being alive anymore. I pray for my death every single day. I wouldn't mind whether it be an accident or a disease, I just wanna die.
Maybe I'll feel guilty for those around me, especially my family and close friends, but, I should prioritise what I want, right? I can't always give.