Venting I wanna ctb rn

[Spaztism]

Just fell out with all my friends from a shit joke I made. all them can make jokes and everything but when I make one of same nature it's too far. I'm sick of suffering. these same friends who left me when I got admitted to hospital for mental health and wanted nothing to do with me. TBH I wanna ctb tonight but don't have much of anything to take only a knife. I'm some aspurges dude who works a shitty minimum wage job part time and makes over stimulating music In my free time for others to enjoy who has been forced to live because of fams pro life views for a few years now. How much does a knife cutting the veins in the throat hurt? If it means anything I have a bottle of vodka to drink if it will reduce pain

 

[SSGoingInsane]

I would not advise it for many reasons: survival instinct, painful, very low success rate (I've seen on some other forum that its about 2%), very gruesome for family members
It would be best to wait it out and try to get SN or something...

 

[Spaztism]

I would not advise it for many reasons: survival instinct, painful, very low success rate (I've seen on some other forum that its about 2%), very gruesome for family members
It would be best to wait it out and try to get SN or something...

You know much about SNs in UK? I'm not very knowledgeable on this stuff. just wanna die. it might sound dumb but if i got drunk enough could I switch off survival instinct ?

 

[SSGoingInsane]

You know much about SNs in UK? I'm not very knowledgeable on this stuff. just wanna die. it might sound dumb but if i got drunk enough could I switch off survival instinct ?

Not really bro. Im from the balkans so i don't think the SN delivery would be the same. I saw some threads of ppl talking the dosage was 25-30 grams if I'm correct. Something to reduce the vomiting sensation is advised, also don't eat 8-12 hours before taking SN. Thats about everything I know, I'm quite new here. i don't know if alcohol would work, probably not.

You know much about SNs in UK? I'm not very knowledgeable on this stuff. just wanna die. it might sound dumb but if i got drunk enough could I switch off survival instinct ?

Just dont rush your decisions... the worst thing you can do is have a failed attempt

 

[Spaztism]

Alright cheers brother I won't. nothing worse than failing. done that quite a few times already in college and univeristy sadly but never had the balls to cut my throat tbh. think I'm having a crisis or something. just wanna be free and rest for ever

 

[FuneralCry]

The fact is that you just cannot trust and rely on people in this world and this is simply just the reality, most people only really care about what directly affects themselves and couldn't care less about what others go through. But of course I understand just wishing to be gone and it certainly can be so tiring feeling trapped here, I very much hate the fact how there isn't an painless way to instantly exit this world without struggle.

 

[Spaztism]

The fact is that you just cannot trust and rely on people in this world and this is simply just the reality, most people only really care about what directly affects themselves and couldn't care less about what others go through. But of course I understand just wishing to be gone and it certainly can be so tiring feeling trapped here, I very much hate the fact how there isn't an painless way to instantly exit this world without struggle.

UK is quite pro life. My family have told me I'm a coward for wanting to exit and gave me the whole "some people have it worse" argument that gets thrown around a lot. Yeah it's brutal tbh how there's no painless way to exit the world.

 

[Sparx]

You know much about SNs in UK? I'm not very knowledgeable on this stuff. just wanna die. it might sound dumb but if i got drunk enough could I switch off survival instinct ?

Alcohol is not recommended with SN, increases chances of vomiting.