ellisdisappeared
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- Aug 17, 2025
- 10
Honestly, I'm set on ctb this year since it would mark 5 years of zero change in my life. Anyway, throughout those 5 years I've tried feeling better about myself by getting into hobbies and really taking it seriously. I've tried almost everything, and since the Winter Olympics weren't too long ago I've just been thinking of how I'm not good at anything.
I've tried ice skating to get my mind off of everything going on in my life, but even if it was just for fun, I deep down knew that I was also doing it because I wanted to be good at something. So when I would occasionally visit the rink and see other beginners doing much better than me, it really sucked.
It doesn't bother me as much anymore when I think about it. But I guess it just gave me more reason to feel like ctb. But honestly, when I really think about it, I have nothing going for me. I just wished I could have some worth, something to be proud of, something to keep me going. That didn't happen though, and this probably sounds stupid because it takes years practice to get to those kinds of levels.
It just sucks seeing people get better at a faster pace than you I guess.
I've tried ice skating to get my mind off of everything going on in my life, but even if it was just for fun, I deep down knew that I was also doing it because I wanted to be good at something. So when I would occasionally visit the rink and see other beginners doing much better than me, it really sucked.
It doesn't bother me as much anymore when I think about it. But I guess it just gave me more reason to feel like ctb. But honestly, when I really think about it, I have nothing going for me. I just wished I could have some worth, something to be proud of, something to keep me going. That didn't happen though, and this probably sounds stupid because it takes years practice to get to those kinds of levels.
It just sucks seeing people get better at a faster pace than you I guess.
