i used to be terrified of death

[starrvingstar]

when i was younger maybe twelve i had an incessant fear of death. there was nothing that kept me up like knowing i would one day die and nothing would happen in my mind body or soul after death. no one would remember me or know me ten years into the future after my death. i would stay up all night sobbing about how i did not want to die and leave everything and everyone i love behind. mostly just my dog haha.

soon after this maybe fourteen i became obsessed with death and i dont know what triggered it.

i went through basic sucidal thoughts, suicidal ideation and romanticism of suicide and the acts of it.

here i am today where i never thought id see myself.

 

[-----]

I'm no longer scared, I welcome it.

 

[starrvingstar]

I'm no longer scared, I welcome it.

i used to be scared of my own thoughts, scared i would kill myself. now i think its silly that i was ever scared of that lol.

 

[WorthlessCoward]

This is how becoming a lich starts, man

 

[leloyon]

I feared what would happen after I died, eternal darkness seemed so scary to me…
I have accepted it now. There is no way to avoid it, so it is pointless to fear it.