I turn 25 in less than a month....I think I want out by then

[AFB]

I'm done. I'm fucking done. I constantly feel alone, I've never had a relationship or social circle. I have no degree, no money, and still live at home as a grown man. I had chances when I was younger but they're all in the past now. I really can't see the future getting much brighter and I'm constantly wallowing in regret, feeling like Ive missed out. I've been having problems with depression and wanting to exit since I was 15. I'm just so tired, my mind hurts, I constantly feel empty.

I'm tired of seeing myself get older and nothing changing. I think I've finally reached that point.

I do kinda feel bad about doing this to my family, especially my brothers, but I just can't fucking do it. I dont want to wake up tomorrow, or the next day or ever.

I got a month; I think I'm finally ready to exit.

 

[sobsob]

i feel you. i feel sometimes like i peaked in high school or something. i hate who i am.

 

[rotten]

I get how you feel, I'm 26 and still living at home while my parents hate on me. If you ever want to vent you can message me. But whatever you decide to do, I hope your able to find some peace in this hellish world.

 

[Plentiful_Despair]

I'm 22 and feel the same. I don't think I will finish this year.

 

[Unspoken7612]

Having "no degree" seems to be one of your concerns. Taking a degree would be a chance to live away from home, build a social circle, and build your job prospects. Have you considered applying for university?

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand feeling so tired of suffering in this cruel existence, but anyway I wish you the best, I also just wish to never wake again.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

Your teens and twenties are the hardest, by far. I had this mentality until I hit 30, and realised I have plenty of time.

You are still very young, but understand all this is very normal. You are still finding yourself, and this is something everyone experiences, some don't until much later in life, and that's ok.

Why does everything have to be done at the tender age of 25? There is so much pressure on young people to have done certain things at a particular age, which is wrong. But, as you age you will realise that - like I did, and my friends - my older friends told me this at the time, but I couldn't see it. Now I do.

Depression is a rough battle, but you can get through it, with extra support around you, and self help. I'm not saying you haven't tried, but your mind is very different at 25, to say 30, and perhaps there are things you haven't tried yet.

Take it from me, I'm 35 and have struggled with mental illness since I was a child, but I'm learning to manage better - and that's what it's about. I have had a lifetime worth of believing 'I've accepted I will die by suicide, and I'm ok with it', but I'm still here, although yes, I've tried countless times to end it, but I obviously want to be here or I would try to end my life, day in, day out.

There is no cure, it will always be there, so it's important to learn better coping strategies in order for you to continue on, and it can be achieved - the hardwork has to be put in though. It takes time, you'll have blips in the road which is completely normal and ok - it's ok to have bad days, but to move forward, being kind to yourself is so important, and reminding yourself you can get through this

 

[AFB]

Having "no degree" seems to be one of your concerns. Taking a degree would be a chance to live away from home, build a social circle, and build your job prospects. Have you considered applying for university?

No, I'm too old for that stuff. I just transferred to a university for engineering as a commuter student and I feel so fucking out of place. Majority of people are younger than me and I feel disconnected and like I missed out. It doesn't help that it's a university that a lot of my peers went to and already graduated from. My crush that I had since HS, and threw away my chance with, graduated from there last spring. It just makes me feel even more lonely and I'm about to drop out.

Your teens and twenties are the hardest, by far. I had this mentality until I hit 30, and realised I have plenty of time.

You are still very young, but understand all this is very normal. You are still finding yourself, and this is something everyone experiences, some don't until much later in life, and that's ok.

Why does everything have to be done at the tender age of 25? There is so much pressure on young people to have done certain things at a particular age, which is wrong. But, as you age you will realise that - like I did, and my friends - my older friends told me this at the time, but I couldn't see it. Now I do.

Depression is a rough battle, but you can get through it, with extra support around you, and self help. I'm not saying you haven't tried, but your mind is very different at 25, to say 30, and perhaps there are things you haven't tried yet.

Take it from me, I'm 35 and have struggled with mental illness since I was a child, but I'm learning to manage better - and that's what it's about. I have had a lifetime worth of believing 'I've accepted I will die by suicide, and I'm ok with it', but I'm still here, although yes, I've tried countless times to end it, but I obviously want to be here or I would try to end my life, day in, day out.

There is no cure, it will always be there, so it's important to learn better coping strategies in order for you to continue on, and it can be achieved - the hardwork has to be put in though. It takes time, you'll have blips in the road which is completely normal and ok - it's ok to have bad days, but to move forward, being kind to yourself is so important, and reminding yourself you can get through this

I really don't want to. All i see is I'll eventually move on from family too and become even more isolated and alone in my 30s. I'd rather not continue living depressed just to end up more depressed.

 

[nomorelight2]

I feel your pain mate, I turn 24 next year and I recently had my chance at a career fucked so I'm left with no career prospects, and to top that off I have no friends to fall back onto as I pushed them away because I'm an emotional wreck. When I get some money in I'm either getting a rope or some heroin (most likely nitazene tbh lol) to finish myself off. I suppose you can take some solace in the fact you aren't alone in how you feel. Shits fucked.

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

i understand, i think ill also be gone before this year ends. 2024 has been one of the worst years for me in a while, im sorry for all the pain you are going through

 

[Trav1989]

I'm done. I'm fucking done. I constantly feel alone, I've never had a relationship or social circle. I have no degree, no money, and still live at home as a grown man. I had chances when I was younger but they're all in the past now. I really can't see the future getting much brighter and I'm constantly wallowing in regret, feeling like Ive missed out. I've been having problems with depression and wanting to exit since I was 15. I'm just so tired, my mind hurts, I constantly feel empty.

I'm tired of seeing myself get older and nothing changing. I think I've finally reached that point.

I do kinda feel bad about doing this to my family, especially my brothers, but I just can't fucking do it. I dont want to wake up tomorrow, or the next day or ever.

I got a month; I think I'm finally ready to exit.

You sound like me a decade ago, sadly people talked me into pushing on and now I'm just even more traumatized than I was back then. Thankfully it's about over for me.

 

[sadespair]

i relate to this so much

 

[Trav1989]

i understand, i think ill also be gone before this year ends. 2024 has been one of the worst years for me in a while, im sorry for all the pain you are going through

Worst year in my entire life for certain, both 2023 and 2024 were awful but 2024 cemented my choice to CTB soon because my life completely derailed and I'm within inches of losing my personal agency in regards to my life. 2023 ushered in the beginning of the end for me but this past year was so bad I can't even express it in words honestly.

Massive debt, marriage fell apart for good, multiple sources of trauma, losing my job, possibly going to jail for a year or two, just horrendous and there is no recovering from it.

 

[esistzeit]

Weird, I don't remember writing this post...

 

[Life'sA6itch]

Having "no degree" seems to be one of your concerns. Taking a degree would be a chance to live away from home, build a social circle, and build your job prospects. Have you considered applying for university?

Getting a degree costs a lot of money, living costs a lot of money, trying to work and get a degree often leads to lower grades (and less understanding of your subjects) than you would earn if solely focusing on the degree. Then, actually having said degree guarantees you NOTHING and you could have four, five or six figure debt for it and still be without a job. This is not pessimism, it is the sad reality.