Help I tried cutting and it didn’t help

[SeonSeia]

I cut myself successfully for the first time this morning during an anxiety attack. I've tried many times but this is the first time I went through with it.

It didn't help at all. Am I doing something wrong? Like, what part of it is supposed to help? Seeing the blood, the pain, or something else?

It was a small cut. Little blood and didn't hurt at all. Was that the problem? It's already half healed a couple hours later. Should I do a deeper one for it to help? But then it'd be harder to hide, especially if it scars. My skin scars very easily. Literally tiny ant bites will scar.

Maybe it's not for me. I always saw it as instead of physical pain blocking the mental pain, it's just double the pain.

I'm running out of coping mechanisms to try, man. Even the unhealthy ones aren't helping. Can someone suggest some please?? Like uncommon ones.

 

[InvasionOfPublicity]

I don't recommend cutting at all. It's just glorified and broadcasted in the media, but honestly, if you're looking for a coping mech, try something else. You'll just hurt yourself and feel stupid. Please don't cut. If you really can't help it, I've known people who would draw as a way to subvert their cutting urges. But overall, just don't cut yourself. There is no "successful" way of cutting.

If you really are looking to CTB, there are many other ways. But cutting is one of the least effective way of doing it.

 

[jeevasO-o]

Cutting might not work for everyone. People do it for many different reasons, wanting to feel something, pain, proof of suffering, to ground themselves..., I hope you'll get better<3 I also struggle with coping.
(Oft: Dazai pfp :P)

 

[NormallyNeurotic]

It won't help. Cutting is a coping mechanism akin to anorexia—the point isn't for it to help. If it does nothing for you, leave it behind. Trust me.