First loss
Specialist
- Jan 28, 2019
- 393
We were walking back home from classes and we started talking, as previously I said to her that I wanted to talk to her about something.
I made her promise not to tell anyone and then told her a bit of info on my email that I will make that will contain "documents" and that she will have to send them to people.
She asked why. Once again I made her promise to keep silent. She obliged and I told her it's because I am planning to hang myself.
She thought I was joking at first, because I am known for my black humor. Maybe it was the look in my eyes that dispelled any doubt, and then she went on a pro life charge at me. She said I can't do that. She asked why am I doing it. I didn't tell her the whole story. I just said that I failed in every aspect of my life and it is pointless for me to live anymore.
Then, she said she won't let me do anything of that sort. I honestly regretted my decision of telling her. I was calm and collected and smiling the whole conversation and she was on the verge of tears.
She asked if I am thinking of my friends, her and my family at all. I replied that I don't and that it's mine decision and I don't really think about how others will recieve it.
She said i'm an idiot and went inside her house.
I probably shouldn't have done this. I'll have to face her tomorrow as well.
I made her promise not to tell anyone and then told her a bit of info on my email that I will make that will contain "documents" and that she will have to send them to people.
She asked why. Once again I made her promise to keep silent. She obliged and I told her it's because I am planning to hang myself.
She thought I was joking at first, because I am known for my black humor. Maybe it was the look in my eyes that dispelled any doubt, and then she went on a pro life charge at me. She said I can't do that. She asked why am I doing it. I didn't tell her the whole story. I just said that I failed in every aspect of my life and it is pointless for me to live anymore.
Then, she said she won't let me do anything of that sort. I honestly regretted my decision of telling her. I was calm and collected and smiling the whole conversation and she was on the verge of tears.
She asked if I am thinking of my friends, her and my family at all. I replied that I don't and that it's mine decision and I don't really think about how others will recieve it.
She said i'm an idiot and went inside her house.
I probably shouldn't have done this. I'll have to face her tomorrow as well.