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kittyshole
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- Oct 23, 2023
- 7
I told my boyfriend everything last night
I told him how he saved me from my ex, how on Janurary 8th I was going to kill myself and he brought light into my life.
I told him how the thoughts are coming back, not because of him or anything in particular.
He held me, he cried with me, he loved on me.
I feel loved and yet I feel so empty at the same time.
I don't think I'll do it soon, eventually I will but things are finally going right for me, I see light at the end of the tunnel.
I'm just also afraid his parents might find out about us. We're in a homosexual relationship and if they find out we're together they'll flip out on him, on us, I'm just so scared. I can't take away that home from him.
He's from Ukraine, they hold those beliefs that they grew up in their time with, they talk to me about it a lot, about how gays are infesting the youth, always in media and schools in Canada.
I don't want them to have another reason to hurt him emotionally, I feel so scared for him and I just can't bear to be the person that pulls him away from his family further.
I want to hold him forever and love him forever, he's all I've ever wanted and I can't wait to give him a stable home when we move out so he can finally, safely come out.
I just need to make it until then, give him stability in his finances and mental health then I can finally get on with it. I can't be such a burden to him, or anyone, anymore.
I told him how he saved me from my ex, how on Janurary 8th I was going to kill myself and he brought light into my life.
I told him how the thoughts are coming back, not because of him or anything in particular.
He held me, he cried with me, he loved on me.
I feel loved and yet I feel so empty at the same time.
I don't think I'll do it soon, eventually I will but things are finally going right for me, I see light at the end of the tunnel.
I'm just also afraid his parents might find out about us. We're in a homosexual relationship and if they find out we're together they'll flip out on him, on us, I'm just so scared. I can't take away that home from him.
He's from Ukraine, they hold those beliefs that they grew up in their time with, they talk to me about it a lot, about how gays are infesting the youth, always in media and schools in Canada.
I don't want them to have another reason to hurt him emotionally, I feel so scared for him and I just can't bear to be the person that pulls him away from his family further.
I want to hold him forever and love him forever, he's all I've ever wanted and I can't wait to give him a stable home when we move out so he can finally, safely come out.
I just need to make it until then, give him stability in his finances and mental health then I can finally get on with it. I can't be such a burden to him, or anyone, anymore.