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Hallow
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- Dec 10, 2022
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I have been put on a new antidepressants (citalopram) a few weeks ago. At the beginning it seemed to have worked some sort of miracle: I was calm and collected, I wasn't having emotional meltdowns, and most importantly I wasn't feeling suicidal.
But in the last 4 days things have been going down in freefall. I can't cope with work stress. I feel like shit every time I am less than perfect and then I feel like a failure.
It doesn't matter how hard I try, I will always be a failure. I will always feel like shit. I am tired. Tired of feeling like shit. Tired of hating myself. Tired of this feeling that I will never be good enough. That I will never be able to function in society.
I have been depressed my whole life, since I was a child. I held on and pushed on, hoping that one dai I'll get better but that day never comes.
I'm tired.
But in the last 4 days things have been going down in freefall. I can't cope with work stress. I feel like shit every time I am less than perfect and then I feel like a failure.
It doesn't matter how hard I try, I will always be a failure. I will always feel like shit. I am tired. Tired of feeling like shit. Tired of hating myself. Tired of this feeling that I will never be good enough. That I will never be able to function in society.
I have been depressed my whole life, since I was a child. I held on and pushed on, hoping that one dai I'll get better but that day never comes.
I'm tired.