Bitterman1996
Student
- May 20, 2020
- 164
i'm venting here because simply no other place to vent.
She has high fever for 3-4 days now, no severe symptoms yet. it worries me and i'm sure i already contracted it too.
I am depressed, i can't help much with her, and she's going to go to the hospital alone today because i have to work. So far, we just had her on acetaminophen/paracetamol for the fever, and just basic flu care (drink water/isotonic drink, vicks and eucalyptus oil etc). I dont know what s going though my mind is the fear that her condition would worsen and die, I am scared but mostly i wish it's the other way around. alot of people would miss her. I'm 99% sure it's not a normal flu since she rarely got sick for more than a couple of days, i hope the test came out negative but i'm pretty sure it's covid.
I am not religious but i'm praying for her safety rn.....
aside from that, i'm simply mad because alot of this is due to the government failing at the disease management, i live in Indo and it's the worst place for covid in ASEAN rn. a lot of local tourists flock the city during the NYE holiday I'm in and voila skyrocketing 10k daily infection. i hate this country
anyhow i'm trying to take care of her since the symptoms could worsen later, i dont know if I could manage. I'm depressed but not suicidal, I dont think i'm ready for the worst case scenario.... I dont know i feel it's cheesy and dumb to type this in a suicide forum, but i'm praying for her safety now god,
She has high fever for 3-4 days now, no severe symptoms yet. it worries me and i'm sure i already contracted it too.
I am depressed, i can't help much with her, and she's going to go to the hospital alone today because i have to work. So far, we just had her on acetaminophen/paracetamol for the fever, and just basic flu care (drink water/isotonic drink, vicks and eucalyptus oil etc). I dont know what s going though my mind is the fear that her condition would worsen and die, I am scared but mostly i wish it's the other way around. alot of people would miss her. I'm 99% sure it's not a normal flu since she rarely got sick for more than a couple of days, i hope the test came out negative but i'm pretty sure it's covid.
I am not religious but i'm praying for her safety rn.....
aside from that, i'm simply mad because alot of this is due to the government failing at the disease management, i live in Indo and it's the worst place for covid in ASEAN rn. a lot of local tourists flock the city during the NYE holiday I'm in and voila skyrocketing 10k daily infection. i hate this country
anyhow i'm trying to take care of her since the symptoms could worsen later, i dont know if I could manage. I'm depressed but not suicidal, I dont think i'm ready for the worst case scenario.... I dont know i feel it's cheesy and dumb to type this in a suicide forum, but i'm praying for her safety now god,