i think my friends never really cared about me

[sulli]

talked to one last night for the first time in weeks, told her how unbearably lonely i've been and she went back to ignoring me immediately
straight up told another one today that i attempted CTB last night, still ignoring me as much as ever
fuck, i know i'm worthless and have no redeeming qualities to begin with but you didn't have to pretend to be my friend for years
idk what made me think i could make friends in the first place, i've always been trash and to trash i shall return

 

[neverthefirstoption]

That's what people do unfortunately, we live in a society that rewards selfishness and greed while leaving behind those that truly deserve compassion and company. It's an awful situation, I really do hope that you find people that truly care about you and your needs. If not, I wish you luck nonetheless. Crippling loneliness is especially difficult to manage, and no one deserves to live like that. Sending encouragement your way.

 

[SantasHelper]

Oh hun. I've dealt with that before, still do sometimes. I know it sucks. Some people just aren't your friends and the only way to feel better is to cut them off. You still feel lonely with them, it wouldn't be that much different without them. Maybe you would feel better knowing that you don't have to worry about them? I hope you find a solution to your problem I know how it feels and it really sucks

 

[charlotte_]

Damn, that's really shitty of her to do. I'm very sorry you have to deal with people like that. You should certainly cut her off, she's not worth caring about. Also, please don't let the fact that she's a bad person makes you think the same for yourself. That's her own problem, not yours, you there's no reason why you have to put yourself down for someone who doesn't deserve your care.

 

[unnormal9]

I covered this topic in another thread.

Others outside of this site find 'talking and self-harm and suicide very uncomfortable and off-putting; in most places people are going to shy away.' It is why suicide is such a taboo subject to begin with.

 

[sulli]

I covered this topic in another thread.

sure but this is an equally mentally ill friend with whom i'm discussed this topic and others like it many times before, unless you mean the first friend to whom i didn't mention suicide or sh in any way

Damn, that's really shitty of her to do. I'm very sorry you have to deal with people like that. You should certainly cut her off, she's not worth caring about. Also, please don't let the fact that she's a bad person makes you think the same for yourself. That's her own problem, not yours, you there's no reason why you have to put yourself down for someone who doesn't deserve your care.

this was actually really helpful thank you

 

[FuneralCry]

Humans certainly can be so incredibly cruel and insensitive, this is unfortunately just the reality of existing here, you cannot trust other people.

 

[unnormal9]

sure but this is an equally mentally ill friend with whom i'm discussed this topic and others like it many times before

No, this makes sense since it is in a similar vein.
The quote is only for ones who are/were not. I apologize for my insolence.

 

[sulli]

No, this makes sense since it is in a similar vein.
The quote is only for ones who are/were not. I apologize for my insolence.

you're totally fine, i certainly had my days of desperately reaching out to normie friends for help when i was younger and looking back, i've always regretted it now that i understand the weight of my actions. you're not the only one to assume that's what i was talking about in this post and i know people were just trying to encourage me to keep my darker thoughts on sasu where it's safer to express them

 

[Pengu]

talked to one last night for the first time in weeks, told her how unbearably lonely i've been and she went back to ignoring me immediately
straight up told another one today that i attempted CTB last night, still ignoring me as much as ever
fuck, i know i'm worthless and have no redeeming qualities to begin with but you didn't have to pretend to be my friend for years
idk what made me think i could make friends in the first place, i've always been trash and to trash i shall return

Aww I hope u are doing well <3, I had this guy friend who once said that it was cringe for me to talk about suicide and self harm. We aren't friends anymore.

 

[sulli]

Aww I hope u are doing well <3, I had this guy friend who once said that it was cringe for me to talk about suicide and self harm. We aren't friends anymore.