Story I think it's almost time

[Ghosted]

First, thank you for site! The availability of information is almost overwhelming, but thank you for making it available.

Second, thank you to all the people here. I am grateful for your kindness to each other. May we all find peace in this life and the next.

Okay, so here's what I'm thinking:

Plan A is N. It seems to be the most peaceful. However, I need to figure out how I can do this without raising suspicions that this is a suicide. I don't want anyone living with questions about what they could have done differently. I am well aware how Western society treats suicide and my goal is to end my pain, not cause it.

Plan B is Chloroquine. This should be easy to obtain through my doctor. The Dr. knows I'm religious and saying I'm going on a pilgrimage wouldn't be out of the ordinary. I could also say I'm going on a mission. (I'm an Episcopalian, we love you for you regardless of your beliefs or lack thereof.)

This seems a lot easier to hide, but I'm still doing research.

Plan C - NS. Also easy to do, but again, I want my death to look like natural causes.

I would like to die right after Midnight Mass, but no later than New Year's Day. I don't think my new insurance is going to cover what I need, I don't trust my dr to continue prescribing the prednisone I need to walk and recover from my brain injury, and I'm tired of always fighting for everything.

However, if Jim Butcher announces Peace Talks will be published in 2020 I will hang out awhile longer. I've been waiting years to read this book!

So there it is. I've finally written out a plan. My heart was racing as I was composing the plan part. Now I feel pretty good.

Thank you for your time.

 

[Ross]

Hi. What caused the brain injury if you don't mind me asking? Was it born with or an accident and I assume this is the main root of this and not something / someone else? Surely a doc can't take away a needed medicine can he?

 

[Ark]

The problem is toxicology is pretty good at identifying all sorts of these things these days. If you could somehow guarantee no toxicology would be done that is one thing, not sure how you could ensure that though. The only easily accessible way to CTB I know of that is pretty tough to find with a toxicology report would be Pong seeds. But, not the most comfortable way to go for sure.

I am sorry you are at this point. I hope you can find the peace you deserve no matter what.

 

[Ghosted]

Hi. What caused the brain injury if you don't mind me asking? Was it born with or an accident and I assume this is the main root of this and not something / someone else? Surely a doc can't take away a needed medicine can he?

Arc, I was run over by a bus five years ago. I went from being pretty smart to below average.

Prednisone is no longer used to treat traumatic brain injuries (TBI) due to the high mortality. However, I will take being able to read, write, smell, taste, walk, and remember and death and possible side effects be damned.

My doctor is very uncomfortable prescribing prednisone to me, even though I have told her I will commit suicide if I'm bedridden again. I saw the palliative care unit to make sure everyone knew were I stand. My doctor at every visit tries to talk to me into not taking prednisone. So far there is no other alternative that as I am aware of.