Venting I think I’m ready

[joegoes100]

I was originally planning to go through on February 14th, since it relates to my reason, but I don't really wanna wait. I keep rapidly changing my mind but then I realize that it won't change how I truly feel. But at the same time I'm coming to peace with the decision and what it means, and I really don't want to live anymore. So I'm going to try tomorrow or the day after because I don't know for sure if I'll have time to buy the rope I was going to buy. But if you don't hear from me in the next week, chances are I'm either hospitalized or dead.

 

[kufajoy]

I don't know but I feel like you are not ready yet. You still hope for someone who will understand you. And see your emotion also flow. It changes. It doesn't seems like you are done yet. Maybe it's not the best time to decide something that you can never change.

 

[Terrible_Life]

I was originally planning to go through on February 14th, since it relates to my reason, but I don't really wanna wait. I keep rapidly changing my mind but then I realize that it won't change how I truly feel. But at the same time I'm coming to peace with the decision and what it means, and I really don't want to live anymore. So I'm going to try tomorrow or the day after because I don't know for sure if I'll have time to buy the rope I was going to buy. But if you don't hear from me in the next week, chances are I'm either hospitalized or dead.

I am so sorry …. May I ask where do you plan to hang yourself? Be careful with the location because unfortunately we won't die instantly when we hang ourself …. Unfortunately those damn 30 min are needed and at that time nobody should be close to you .

 

[joegoes100]

I don't know but I feel like you are not ready yet. You still hope for someone who will understand you. And see your emotion also flow. It changes. It doesn't seems like you are done yet. Maybe it's not the best time to decide something that you can never change.

I'm just so tired of being me, and I can't change that. I don't want to vent but I actually hate my self and everything that comes with it and I'm constantly reminded of my self and who I am. I appreciate your concern and you're probably right, I'm just too tired.

I am so sorry …. May I ask where do you plan to hang yourself? Be careful with the location because unfortunately we won't die instantly when we hang ourself …. Unfortunately those damn 30 min are needed and at that time nobody should be close to you .

I'm going to be doing it in my room, but I'm either going to very late when everyone's sleeping or when no one's home. For context I'm 18 in my senior year living with parents.

 

[darksouls]

good luck,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

 

[joegoes100]

good luck,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering

Thank you. I hope you find peace also.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.

 

[cursedlife]

I also I'm going with hanging as my method when I decide to end my life