Sorry to hear this, you have 89 in your username, I'm guessing it's your birth year, I'm also born in 1989. :)
thank you for responding! No I actually just chose random numbers, I'm actually only 18 :(
Ah...where are you from and what's driving you to CTB? Do you mind sharing your story?
Im from the U.K., and I'll share a bit. My issues started when I was around 7 or 8, when my fixation and issues with my body began. I also lived with a neglectful mother who is an alcoholic, who I still still with. I had three very traumatic incidents between the ages of 11-12, and severely bullied from the ages to 12-14. I was diagnosed with ptsd in August after witness an extremely traumatic event when I was 11, and after living in a house with more traumatic events . I started becoming depressed around the age of 15. Things have been going downhill for the past few months, I haven't been eating or sleeping or going to college, and I feel that I have no other options. My anxiety, depression and ptsd have been getting worse and I'm so tired of things never getting better even if I try and put the work in to fix them. I think I'm not cut out for life. I don't want to feel anything anymore.
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Umm I don't think, I'm just trying to come to terms with my decision. I'm hoping for a relaxing weekend tbh! Maybe I'll go out tomorrow and get a nice smoothie or something. Do you?
lostangel
Enlightened
- Mar 22, 2019
- 1,051
I'm going to assume you mean full suspension. Partial takes a while to master. Ask yourself do you have strong enough rope, at least 30 minutes alone, a safe place where you won't be interrupted and ask yourself are you 100% sure you want to go through with this. If so then good luck. <3
Neurodamaged2
Member
- Oct 28, 2019
- 69
I would recommend trying therapy first, you're still quite young and your brain is still maturing. I'd avoid psych drugs as alot of people on here are here as a result of permanent side effects of using these medications, plus they have a questionable success rate. I actually can't understate that enough, psych drugs will ruin your life - unless you desperately are psychotic or dysfunctional and wouldn't avoid a psych ward without them, avoid them. If, however, you are set on hanging yoursellf, you should know that failing will result in irreversible brain damage (of varying degree, depending on how long your brain was hypoxiic, etc. Seek proper guides on hanging.
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I’vehadenough
Elementalist
- Sep 15, 2018
- 847
I think you should try some things before ctb. I came from a similar household. Violent alcoholic dad. Bullying. PTSD. I suggest first dropping out of school because it's adding to the pressure, but first talking to a teacher at the school and tell them what you have told us. They have a lot of resources and they can help you escape that violent household and start a better life.
wanttodie
Enlightened
- Apr 19, 2018
- 1,802
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