Hi guys! Just here to get some support form you! I'm really nervous but I think I'm definitely trying to ctb this week! After so many years of thinking about it and after almost 2 years of therapy I just put myself into a very desperate position which I was hoping it was gonna give me the courage I needed to do it, I think it's working! But honestly I'm scared AF, I have something planned but I'm very scared that it will fail! And I think a lot about when I get to that moment and honestly I don't knwo if I will have the courage and the power to either hang myself or to drink the SN with some sleeping pills! It's a very weird feeling, half of me wants to do it, the other half doesn't! If there's something you guys can tell me I would appreciate. Thanks 
