I think I'm existing in a wrong life and wrong people

[Life sucks]

Hi

Life sucks and is a wrong and absurd thing for me. Other people are absurd as hell and I can't stand their nonsense and continuing the shitty loop based on mumbo-jumbo.

Sadly, I'm forced to stay with this shit unless I die or ctb. How to stay with absurd creatures when you think logically and scientifically, you can't. Even if you pretend to stay with them, you'll get the times you'll say WTF.

Almost everything these creatures do is absurd and I can find contradictions in whatever they say. But hey let's believe in some bullshit and stay illogical, Let's just continue the shitty world and suffering of others, let's just continue wars and crimes because life is sacred? Seriously, fuck the whole absurdness of this planet. I feel like I'm an alien because I don't agree with most things they do. Stupid bureaucracy, dumb systems and beliefs, corruption and religion and many other things that are just, oh well, let's just follow it because its the norm and what ancestors did.

Really absurd life and absurd creatures. Suffering and problems won't ever be solved by this stupid things. To understand each others and the problems of life, one has to be logical (that's assuming one want to live).

Living in this planet makes me feel like alien. I should leave

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

So true......

 

[Escaper Boy]

I never feel belonged in the place where I live. I know in my heart, my place is located somewhere else far away. I wish I have ton of money to travel. I would take a journey around the globe to find my place, a place I can call "home".

 

[TAW122]

@Life sucks I can definitely relate to this, especially the part about thinking logically and scientifically. I too, feel like I just don't understand others and vice versa. It also gets weird for me when I try to interact or when I have to 'explain' things and they still don't get it. I've since given up on trying to fit in a world that I don't relate, don't belong to, and don't accept me for who I am. There is too much superficial shit, countless contradictions, dumb double-standards to make an encyclopedia of humanity itself.

@Escaper Boy Yes, I feel like most of my life is just a background character in a movie, story, play, film. I don't really 'belong' to people and most of the time, people generally ignore me unless they want something from me. I live with roommates and have some people close to me, but they don't talk much nor hangout with me much.

 

[EddieAllenPoe]

Hi. I'm probably one of those absurd and illogical creatures in your mind. I read this and wanted to point something out because I have often felt just like you.

I think it's possible you're struggling with how life actually is. You are actually being the illogical one. You're not going to like being told this. I know I would hate it. You know how there are people that are convinced the world is flat? We call them flat earthers. Their observation of the world is reasonable when you consider the scope of their reality. They're incapable of conceiving of the world as being a curved globe because they haven't examined the evidence. The world isn't flat in reality. If you continue in one direction you're actually going to be forced to follow a slow curve. There are actual proofs of this. There are even pictures from space.

Imagine you are a flat earther. One day you get fed up with everyone and everything. Everyone you know is convinced the world is round and you are sick of it. So one day you make up your mind that you're going to end it all. In fact, out of spite, you decide to walk off the edge of the earth. How do you think that's actually going to end?

You're probably going to ignore this and think there is no point in writing this. Let me ask you something.

Is it possible you are alive for a reason? What themes do you notice about the people you have encountered in your life? What ideas or thoughts do you often resist?

I've noticed that life is a lot like a dream. Sometimes it's a nightmare. But it isn't complete chaos. I have found out the hard way that I am often the illogical one. I tend to turn more to my feelings than actually observing reality and using my reason. Am I actually the only one who is like this?

 

[Life sucks]

Hi. I'm probably one of those absurd and illogical creatures in your mind. I read this and wanted to point something out because I have often felt just like you.

I think it's possible you're struggling with how life actually is. You are actually being the illogical one. You're not going to like being told this. I know I would hate it. You know how there are people that are convinced the world is flat? We call them flat earthers. Their observation of the world is reasonable when you consider the scope of their reality. They're incapable of conceiving of the world as being a curved globe because they haven't examined the evidence. The world isn't flat in reality. If you continue in one direction you're actually going to be forced to follow a slow curve. There are actual proofs of this. There are even pictures from space.

Imagine you are a flat earther. One day you get fed up with everyone and everything. Everyone you know is convinced the world is round and you are sick of it. So one day you make up your mind that you're going to end it all. In fact, out of spite, you decide to walk off the edge of the earth. How do you think that's actually going to end?

You're probably going to ignore this and think there is no point in writing this. Let me ask you something.

Is it possible you are alive for a reason? What themes do you notice about the people you have encountered in your life? What ideas or thoughts do you often resist?

I've noticed that life is a lot like a dream. Sometimes it's a nightmare. But it isn't complete chaos. I have found out the hard way that I am often the illogical one. I tend to turn more to my feelings than actually observing reality and using my reason. Am I actually the only one who is like this?

It is more complicated than this and nope, they are still illogical. You can assume their axioms/beliefs are true and find contradictions.

Logically, everything will happen because of something, even their dumb ideas are the product of something else. But that's if we take the logic and analysis of the universe/life as a whole. Everything just happens and logically can be explained but does that means humans are not absurd? No

However, as a human beings. Everything can be viewed as absurd because the axioms are human-dependent and not universe/life-dependent. The universe/life doesn't care about suffering so it doesn't matter but as a human being I don't want suffering and what others do will always be absurd if we axomatize "suffering is bad".

Every path humans can do can be explainable by the universe/life logic but that doesn't mean those humans are logical, it means a logical description of how they became like this.

However, the absurdity of humans comes mostly from faulty assumptions and beliefs. Many will just ignore the whole logic and continue believing while it conta countless contradictions. In some rare cases, it is possible to have a consistent logic with a bad axiom. The latter is harder to tackle.


So about your questions, no I don't see any reason and the people are toxic. I resist every bullshit thing they say that leads to harm me or harm others. They just cause suffering which I resist.

Life can be an illusion but suffering and misery sucks despite being illusionary or not.

Finally, the language of logic isn't natural languages. It is more abstract like mathematical logic. Science is still advancing and trying to link things together and who knows what will happen in the future. It is amazing that humans can reach this level of logicism although it is extremely rare and can make one alienated. There are many philosophers, scientists and others who were alienated because of this. Maybe as a species, we aren't supposed to know this but became extraordinarily an exception.

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

I don't know why I haven't escaped the Matrix by now.

 

[EddieAllenPoe]

That's interesting. I definitely know what you mean. In my own life I think I suffer a bit from a form of autism. I tend to think a lot. Probably a lot more than others. There's many things that seem illogical to me but I later found out they actually do make sense. Most people think with their emotions. It's taken me forever to figure out what that even means. I tend to do what Psychologists call "intellectualization". It's a defense mechanism where you block confronting your emotions and every day reality by thinking. We're not the same person but I can at least relate to life seeming like absolute bullshit.

 

[Empty Smile]

I've said it before, if everyone on this planet was to die, except me, I'd be happy.

Except all you guys, you're pretty much the family I don't have in real life.

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

I've said it before, if everyone on this planet was to die, except me, I'd be happy.

Except all you guys, you're pretty much the family I don't have in real life.

You might get your wish eventually. The way we treat the environment, natural resources and cause some regions such as Syria to become a war torn wasteland is more than enough evidence for me to be convinced that we're doomed.

 

[Wanderer_with_Death]

Hi

Life sucks and is a wrong and absurd thing for me. Other people are absurd as hell and I can't stand their nonsense and continuing the shitty loop based on mumbo-jumbo.

Sadly, I'm forced to stay with this shit unless I die or ctb. How to stay with absurd creatures when you think logically and scientifically, you can't. Even if you pretend to stay with them, you'll get the times you'll say WTF.

Almost everything these creatures do is absurd and I can find contradictions in whatever they say. But hey let's believe in some bullshit and stay illogical, Let's just continue the shitty world and suffering of others, let's just continue wars and crimes because life is sacred? Seriously, fuck the whole absurdness of this planet. I feel like I'm an alien because I don't agree with most things they do. Stupid bureaucracy, dumb systems and beliefs, corruption and religion and many other things that are just, oh well, let's just follow it because its the norm and what ancestors did.

Really absurd life and absurd creatures. Suffering and problems won't ever be solved by this stupid things. To understand each others and the problems of life, one has to be logical (that's assuming one want to live).

Living in this planet makes me feel like alien. I should leave

Welcome to being "woke" as many would say.

 

[Life sucks]

Welcome to being "woke" as many would say.

Yea true but the thing I "woke" before long time and the more time passes I discover more bullshit and get more alien

 

[Wanderer_with_Death]

Yea true but the thing I "woke" before long time and the more time passes I discover more bullshit and get more alien

There are others like you, myself included. It's just a matter of reaching out and being associated with other "woke" souls. I learned to stop "caring" about external factors so much, most of suffering caused, at least in my experience is that very factor. Of course I'm not without my empathy and good nature, but I am particular and careful on who and what I "open myself to", the rest of the world is a fish tank, a abundance of many wandering and trying to survive, I pay them no mind most of the time and I wish them well on their journey.

 

[spanishguy22]

A whole lot of problems that plague me come from being an extremely empathetic person, paired up with extremely good analytic ability. I'm an anomaly and that caused me a lot of suffering. I think about others suffering and almost can feel it myself. It's poisonous