Help I think I'm done

[cymbaline23]

I think I'm ready to give up. The cycle is endless, and the pain is too much to bear. I'm tired of being so alone. I'm tired of being afraid. I don't even feel like venting anymore. I've finally started making a folder to leave behind with my journal notes, pictures and music I've made, my favorite songs, etc. I wanted to do more before dying, but I don't have the energy anymore. It's not like anyone cares anyway. No one will give a shit until it's too late.

I think I'm ready to die, but I don't know how I'm going to. I have a bunch of Xanax and Seroquel, but I know that's not enough on its own. I don't want to suffer anymore. I need something to happen soon or I'm actually going to lose my mind. If anyone has any suggestions please let me know

 

[DivineSpark]

I can relate to pain.......I am struggling with it on daily basis...just tired of it.

 

[dingokettle3531]

Been and am currently at this point too, things feel like an endless repeating cycle of depressing and boring things one after the other

 

[steveholt]

I understand the pain for me its both physical and mental.. i do a lot or journaling and have and phone app diary .. ive made peace with my demons.. but i know we are here for the same reason. But longer we on here and talking, shies we just really need the support and to be able to talk to like minded people ..i would be hypocite to say some things but ..please dont just rush into it ..have a think find those positive times ...
Do the math ..

 

[SoulCage]

I feel your pain. I am also almost there, closer than ever. I am still checking out one last recovery route I haven't tried before. But it's a lot of waiting... Extremely painful. I also want to do some sort of folder. Thanks for the idea with the music. I think I want to write down some of my favourite parts from songs that touch my soul.
I'll likely go by full suspension hanging, overdose from medication like Xanax is known to be not very effective... Please choose wisely.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand finding it painful to exist, I also wish to be free from the suffering, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[zappynomore]

yeah for me its a cycle of feeling like im out of it then it all starts again the cycle is just endless.

 

[Halfhourdays]

Like Groundhog's Day. Every day is exactly the same.

Life is like... maybe at some point you will discover you're a character in a weird existentialist novel who already died or something. The myth of Sisyphus, the consumer.

Anyway, hope you feel better.