I think I'll actually not wait

[Lupgevif]

Less than three months ago I made this thread saying that if I didn't find a job until 2024 I'd do it. But honestly, at this point I don't care anymore, I'll just ctb. Life is so dull, nothing appeases me and I see no point in anything. I don't feel like becoming an artist anymore, and no other job or career interests me. I also have interest in no hobby - and even videogames, which I though I was addicted to, no longer attract me.

I'm just tired of life. Day after day, nothing ever improves. Medicine stops working after a while, college gets harder and professors don't teach shit, things get more expensive and money gets scarcer.
I've given recover an honest shot. Six months ago I'd probably be thinking suicide was a ridiculous idea. But it came back. Like it always do. I'm just sick of this cycle.

So I've made the decision. Wether I find a job or not, I'm killing myself this year. That's it. I'm done.

 

[Darkover]

i can't wait for my life to end what a feeling of reassurance and relaxation following release from this horrible lifetime

 

[FuneralCry]

I do understand feeling so tired of being trapped here, of course existence is so incredibly tedious and at least to me it could never be worth delaying the inevitable. I've never seen any benefit to enduring endless days here and it makes sense to me wanting to be free from this awful world. But anyway, I wish you the best.

 

[GasMonkey]

What's your method?

 

[Lupgevif]

What's your method?

SN.

 

[DukeDestroyer]

I can understand the life is dull. Year after year my life is slowly becoming more dull. I don't want to do anything most of the time, my motivation is gone. I'm just going through the motions now.