I think I will make an attempt this year

[Lost Magic]

I realised that life is just not going to get any better. I have deteriorating a lot and I have been on this forum for years now. Going to get some sleep early tonight so that I can start to think through what I need to do. I failed at almost everything. I just don't want to fail any serious attempt because that would make things worse. I teared up a lot today, while thinking about all the woulda, coulda, shouldas. And, I am was moved by reading some of the posts here. It's just so heartbreaking that we are all here in the first place, but this is a platform that at least gives us a voice. I will always be greatful to all the kindness and help from this wonderful community! The hardest part will be making conscientious effort to do this thing right. I can't afford to botch it! I just want to be free from this world and this body.

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find peace from suffering, I wish you the best.