I think I will attempt it again soon, when I'm out of the hospital.

[Sadness20]

I am in the psych ward right now, I tried to get help. But I still don't know how to deal with my impulses. I think i will attempt again when I'm out. I'm supposed to get released tomorrow. Maybe I will do it tomorrow in the evening. Maybe the day after. But I will do it soon, I can feel it. I only feel darkness in my brain. They always say "But it always gets better" yes but it also always gets worse. I'm tired and I am done with bullshitting around. I think I'll ask my dealer to get me drugs and then mix that with pain meds. And maybe alcohol. I don't know yet. I also don't know if it's going to work but I don't really care. I just want to do it. It's something I can do in a world where I'm so powerless.

 

[Lost_my_soul]

I'm sorry you feel this way, if you dont mind me asking , what was your last attempt and how did it go?

 

[Sadness20]

I'm sorry you feel this way, if you dont mind me asking , what was your last attempt and how did it go?

Honestly I've had so many attempts and I'm not even sure what I did last time because I tried a lot of things a lot of times. It was either taking a bunch of pain meds or it was me trying to choke myself with a belt. I know both not very safe methods but I do these things impulsively so I don't really have time to plan.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really understanable just wishing to be free from all the suffering that existing brings, I hope that you eventually find what you search for.

 

[Sadness20]

It's really understanable just wishing to be free from all the suffering that existing brings, I hope that you eventually find what you search for.

You're still here? I remember seeing you a long time ago. I haven't used this website for a while but now I'm back it seems.