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annasplight
endless grief
- Aug 6, 2024
- 39
I will make a proper thread before I go, but I really think that I have to CTB. I lost the love of my life and he truly won't come back. I didn't have any other good things in my life, but I had him. Now he's gone and he doesn't want to talk to me. I don't even think he would care if I died. I want to reach out to him for support, but i'm sure he will shrug me off and call it a manipulation tactic. I just want my sweet boy back. The one who took care of me and loved me unapologetically. Now i'm just stuck without him, i have no friends, i still have debilitating health issues, and my parents don't seem to like me all that much. My life truly has no purpose. All I do is hurt people.
I think my method will be SN. I will draft up a suicide note and have it sent to the people I once cared for. I just wish he would snap out of it and text me and just talk to me. If there's a god, that's my only prayer. I want him to come back to me and we can work things out. If I don't get a text by tomorrow morning, i'm going to purchase my SN and get to work. I already have Reglan as a prescription medication, so i'm pretty much set.
I wish I wasn't so hard to love.
I think my method will be SN. I will draft up a suicide note and have it sent to the people I once cared for. I just wish he would snap out of it and text me and just talk to me. If there's a god, that's my only prayer. I want him to come back to me and we can work things out. If I don't get a text by tomorrow morning, i'm going to purchase my SN and get to work. I already have Reglan as a prescription medication, so i'm pretty much set.
I wish I wasn't so hard to love.