Kimlett
Student
- Jan 7, 2024
- 144
It's been 3 years since I broke up with my ex and my fourth (?) depressive episode started. It's been the longest and it seems to have no end. I've been able to overcome my other depressive episodes but this time seems different. I know depression lies and makes me feel it lasts forever. But three years is too long. Going outside, getting things done although I don't feel like it, socialising... These things have really helped me get out of my other depressive episodes, but they are not working anymore.
Also, I lost interest in videogames, which always have helped me get distracted and have some fun; if I lose interest in videogames, that's when I really know I'm fucked. Fortunately my interest have been reignited a bit thanks to HN Silksong, but I don't know what will happen when I finish the game.
I will probably change therapists. But besides that, should I just accept that this will last forever? Can I reduce the symptoms I've not been able to reduce in 3 years?
All of this for a stupid breakup. I didn't even wanted to break up with him, it was a stupid decision and I regreted it. Anyway, now I am in a great relationship with someone else and I don't think about my ex anymore. Why do I still feel like shit? Should I try to contact my ex and become friends so my stupid brain can have some closure or something??
Also, I lost interest in videogames, which always have helped me get distracted and have some fun; if I lose interest in videogames, that's when I really know I'm fucked. Fortunately my interest have been reignited a bit thanks to HN Silksong, but I don't know what will happen when I finish the game.
I will probably change therapists. But besides that, should I just accept that this will last forever? Can I reduce the symptoms I've not been able to reduce in 3 years?
All of this for a stupid breakup. I didn't even wanted to break up with him, it was a stupid decision and I regreted it. Anyway, now I am in a great relationship with someone else and I don't think about my ex anymore. Why do I still feel like shit? Should I try to contact my ex and become friends so my stupid brain can have some closure or something??
