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FoolishDog
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- Nov 20, 2020
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I don't know that I want anyone to advise me about this. Don't incriminate yourself is what I'm saying. I'm also not responsible for what anyone does because of reading what I have to say. I'm only saying this here because there's no where else to say it.
I think I have my plan. I have a plan, anyways. Partial suspension in my closet with a neck tie. I have a nice wide one, it's silk and pretty strong. The silk feels pretty good around my neck. Not exactly comfortable, it's choking me after all, but much better than a rope would be I imagine. The tie and closet pole are strong enough to hold my weight. I wasn't sure about the closet pole but it seems to be okay. I'm only about 150 lbs.
Another thing I'm considering is full suspension from a metal pole that's in my basement. The pole will hold me but I'm concerned that with full suspension I might need something stronger than my tie. If I put two ties together, which I own, I'm concerned that they might slip apart, I wont be able to tie the knots well, or one tie will be slightly shorter than the other and thus hold an uneven amount of my weight while the other pretty much does nothing.
I think, if I'm certain that I'm out of options, that I can do a partial suspension. I'll need to explain myself and the situation to some people in my life. So I'll write a letter. Perhaps a couple letters. There are people in this world that I owe an explanation to. I'm not sure why, but I think I want to dress in my nicest suit. Get a haircut, clean the facial hair up, that kind of thing. Although I don't think they'll bury me in the same suit I died in, so maybe not. There's probably only one thing I own that I'd like to have on me. That's my AA 3 year coin. It would be so easy to overdose on heroin/fentanyl. It's all over the streets around here. I know where to find it, how to use it, how much to use, and I can afford to buy it. I just don't think I want to die fucked up like that. I think the pain and discomfort of a suspension is better some how.
I don't know where else to share these thoughts. I'm glad I have this forum.
I think I have my plan. I have a plan, anyways. Partial suspension in my closet with a neck tie. I have a nice wide one, it's silk and pretty strong. The silk feels pretty good around my neck. Not exactly comfortable, it's choking me after all, but much better than a rope would be I imagine. The tie and closet pole are strong enough to hold my weight. I wasn't sure about the closet pole but it seems to be okay. I'm only about 150 lbs.
Another thing I'm considering is full suspension from a metal pole that's in my basement. The pole will hold me but I'm concerned that with full suspension I might need something stronger than my tie. If I put two ties together, which I own, I'm concerned that they might slip apart, I wont be able to tie the knots well, or one tie will be slightly shorter than the other and thus hold an uneven amount of my weight while the other pretty much does nothing.
I think, if I'm certain that I'm out of options, that I can do a partial suspension. I'll need to explain myself and the situation to some people in my life. So I'll write a letter. Perhaps a couple letters. There are people in this world that I owe an explanation to. I'm not sure why, but I think I want to dress in my nicest suit. Get a haircut, clean the facial hair up, that kind of thing. Although I don't think they'll bury me in the same suit I died in, so maybe not. There's probably only one thing I own that I'd like to have on me. That's my AA 3 year coin. It would be so easy to overdose on heroin/fentanyl. It's all over the streets around here. I know where to find it, how to use it, how much to use, and I can afford to buy it. I just don't think I want to die fucked up like that. I think the pain and discomfort of a suspension is better some how.
I don't know where else to share these thoughts. I'm glad I have this forum.