I'm not sure why, but I've never ever been happier. here's what i started doing differently.
-I started a new therapy program for teens and young adults on how to live independently! for practically all my life, my mother was doing all this stuff for me, even past the age where it's appropriate. i've realized that this is something that she does to make herself fell better, and she doesn't care if i learn these skills or not. i'm working on slowly peeling myself away from this toxic dynamic.
-I started getting better sleep! this is self explanitory, but im getting 7-8 hours of sleep per day, where i used to be getting 10-13 hrs. i feel a lot more energized in the mornings than i used to.
-after I left the hospital, i started throwing up like over a dozen times a day and it got so bad I had to back in for monitoring and a saline drip. funny enough, that was all it took to make me feel better. after that, i became disgusted by a lot of foods and just could't bring myself to eat as much as i used to. i have absolutely lost weight as a result, but i haven't been eating as much as i know i should. this is something i need to work on.
-I'm getting ready to move out of my parent's house for the first time! i have a place set up with a local housing co-operative in my city. i've even gone to see the apartment! its about 800/month and that includes utilities, electricity, and wifi! the place actually used to be a hotel, but the owner of the building donated it to this organization! they work with a counselling and support team for people who are neuro divergent like me!
-I started giving myself the things I thought I needed to earn from those from me. By this I mean respect, compliments, forgiveness, patience, gifts, and love. It suprised me that this was the key to finally loving myself, and that I could start doing it at any time. it feels so simple i almost feel stupid for not realizing this earlier. my self esteem is higher than It's ever been, and I'm only getting hotter for it. Give this a try!
I still have battles, I still cry, and i still think that eventually, when my time comes, I will end up finishing what i started and actually do it, but i've realized that these next 10-15 years of my life are mine for the taking. And I'll be damned if I miss out on what the world has yet to show me. thanks for reading! I hope you can find your way to flourishing like me!
-I started a new therapy program for teens and young adults on how to live independently! for practically all my life, my mother was doing all this stuff for me, even past the age where it's appropriate. i've realized that this is something that she does to make herself fell better, and she doesn't care if i learn these skills or not. i'm working on slowly peeling myself away from this toxic dynamic.
-I started getting better sleep! this is self explanitory, but im getting 7-8 hours of sleep per day, where i used to be getting 10-13 hrs. i feel a lot more energized in the mornings than i used to.
-after I left the hospital, i started throwing up like over a dozen times a day and it got so bad I had to back in for monitoring and a saline drip. funny enough, that was all it took to make me feel better. after that, i became disgusted by a lot of foods and just could't bring myself to eat as much as i used to. i have absolutely lost weight as a result, but i haven't been eating as much as i know i should. this is something i need to work on.
-I'm getting ready to move out of my parent's house for the first time! i have a place set up with a local housing co-operative in my city. i've even gone to see the apartment! its about 800/month and that includes utilities, electricity, and wifi! the place actually used to be a hotel, but the owner of the building donated it to this organization! they work with a counselling and support team for people who are neuro divergent like me!
-I started giving myself the things I thought I needed to earn from those from me. By this I mean respect, compliments, forgiveness, patience, gifts, and love. It suprised me that this was the key to finally loving myself, and that I could start doing it at any time. it feels so simple i almost feel stupid for not realizing this earlier. my self esteem is higher than It's ever been, and I'm only getting hotter for it. Give this a try!
I still have battles, I still cry, and i still think that eventually, when my time comes, I will end up finishing what i started and actually do it, but i've realized that these next 10-15 years of my life are mine for the taking. And I'll be damned if I miss out on what the world has yet to show me. thanks for reading! I hope you can find your way to flourishing like me!
